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Not Yet...

Wednesday, February 08, 2012

There are so many things I can't do right now because of my weight.

I can't sit in a booth at a restaurant. I can't sleep at night without a CPAP machine. I cry when I clothes shop online because I have to buy what fits, even though I don't like the style or color. I must shop online because I can't buy clothes in a regular store. I get out of breath when I bend over. I can't fit into a single airplane seat, I have to pay for two seats and I can't fly in that airplane without a seat belt extender.

Recently, someone I love gently sat me down and told me, "Just because you can't do those things now doesn't mean you never will. You just can't do those things yet." Every time I would cry and get discouraged they would say it again.

I began to believe it was true, and I felt a seed of hope form inside. I told myself, "Not yet" when I struggled to tie my shoes. I felt silly at first, but I kept doing it. When I surveyed a closet packed with too-small sizes, I said out loud, "It won't be long and I'll wear these clothes. Just not yet." When we sat down at a table in the diner to have lunch, I looked over at the booths and softly said to myself, "Not yet."

I've been doing this now for a couple weeks and I feel the difference. When weight-related issues like that come up and I can feel myself getting frustrated, I stop and tell myself, "No, I can't do that."

Not yet.

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    "Not yet" is a good distinction from "not ever". Funny how we all seem to have that part of our minds that tell us unskillful things. Good for you for talking back to it!

    Hope you don't wait to start treating yourself like the special woman you are. Please also do what you can TODAY for your beauty and pleasure... like that great hat you're wearing in your picture, a nice pair of earrings, some colorful sox, a pretty scarf. Things that will go well with that party dress that's "not yet", but SOON!

    (I'm cheering for you. As a fellow sugar baby I know how hard weight control can be. Trust me, it gets much easier once the weight starts to come down. Kind of an upward spiral!)

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    1619 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/16/2013 11:02:57 PM
    Your blog sends an emotional message. Those of us with a weigh problem feel your pain and the heavier one is the heavier the pain. You know it is a lifestyle change. You don't want to become Diabetic - remember cut the Carbs that turn to sugar in the body. They say if it is white - don't eat it! Well, you know like bread, rice, potatoes and such. I am now 9 days off sugar and sweet things. I am Diabetic and it is a struggle. Take baby step to your lifestyle change and you know what girl??? You will make it, for sure! PS: if you fall, pick yourself up again and start anew. That's what I am doing at this time...
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    1816 days ago
    This is quite an inspirational post. "not yet". I like that. It's a great motivator.
    2166 days ago
    This inspired me today. I just got out of the hospital...where I needed a full court press of IV steroids for two weeks....Which made me gain 15 pounds in just that short time! I've been on this road before...over and over....every time I get healthy and thin (er) ...I end up sick and fat and weak once more. It is so tempting to roll over and quit. I was feeling today like i would never feel good in my body again. But maybe I will. Just not today.
    2167 days ago
    2173 days ago
    You are gonna win I am sure!!
    2173 days ago
    One step, one day at a time...... emoticon I have confidence in you that you will. emoticon
    2174 days ago
  • AMR6665
    That's right...not yet!! I have so much faith in you and your ability to do this thing....and just in case you forget to say "not yet"....I will be there to remind you. Time, determination, and have all of the above...not to mention...Fruits and veggies! emoticon emoticon
    2174 days ago
  • DADDO-62
    Get started that's it
    You want to do it and you can!!

    Watch "biggest loser" for some inspiration
    2174 days ago
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