Wednesday, February 08, 2012
I would like to hibernate for the next three weeks. I need a break from my life!!! I feel like I just can't win. I started an exercise program in September and trigger a major asthma attack. I was on medication for three weeks and told no extra physical activity for an additional three weeks. Started again in November. December I was hospitalized with strep. No fun! No exercise for another two weeks. Finally, started walking again with my students in January. Now my knee is a mess.
I ended up at the dr. office today. The tendons and ligaments around my knee are weak and not holding my knee tightly in place. So my knee cap is high, the cartilage turned, and my knee is separating. No wonder my knee was giving out every few steps! Now I get to go see an ortho guy next week and will probably have physical therapy for 3 to 6 months. In addition to all my drama, strep and flu are circulating around my school, my son had frostnip over the weekend, and now my son is sick. Enough already!!!
My knee locked at the doctor's office today. It was so embarrassing. I literally could not move. It was a feat to get me into a wheelchair. I spent most of the visit in the wheelchair. It took two people helping me to get the x-rays of my knee. At some point, I remember thinking, I am fat. My legs are ugly. I should not need two people to help me in and out of a wheelchair. Today my weight bothered me more than it ever has. I really wish it was reasonable to lose 50 pounds in one week. I don't want the ortho doc to see me this way.
However, this is where I am at. I have decided to concentrate on making good food choices this week. I am also going to look at chair exercises in the morning. I have never done chair exercises before, but I think I should. It is either chair exercises or no exercises for a while. (I literally cannot walk more than a few steps at a time right now.) I did read that for every pound I lose, it reduces the stress on my knees by about 4 pounds. Therefore, I would like to lose at least 1 pound in the next week before I go to the ortho doc.
Now that I have the basis for a plan, I think my pity party is over. Time to move forward.