I think I gave up.
Tuesday, February 07, 2012
I have been working out and eating right for 4 months and not one pound came off. I finally called a surgeon for the Lap Band and will be going to my first seminar this Saturday. I know that it took years to put the weight on, but it seems that I go from one diet to another and don't lose a pound or lose it and gain it back. I yelled at the poor counselor at Jenny Craig when she asked me if I wanted to join, I told her "No, I don't want to join a place that pays millions to celebrities to endorse their brand, tell me that I can pay $20 to lose all the weight I want BUT I have to buy their meals. Do you think for one minute that I believe Mariah Carey ate those meals??? Also, after I am done eating those meals, do you teach the dieter how to cook so that they won't gain the weight back?" She had no answer and walked away. I lashed out at a few places (Weight Watchers, Nutra System UGH!!!) I want what works! After being on Spark for a few months and feeling like I am giving up everything that I love the most, and exercising like crazy, I haven't lost a pound and was feeling more hungry at the end of the day. I started taking Xenadrine and it curbed my appetite but I felt light headed one moment or like I drank 4 gallons of coffee the next (I had the shakes big time) if I didn't exercise enough. I then figured to drink Slim Fast but blend in banana, strawberries, blueberries and a little greek yogurt to thicken it up. Great, it is filling but I am not satisfied. At my weakest moment after taking another set of pills for my high cholesterol and pre-diabetes, I called a surgeon for the Lap Band. I cried the entire time on the phone. I am active! I am eating right! I bought a Showtime Rotisserie and no longer fry foods, I gave up soda, juice and only drink the shakes, water or green tea no sugar. Why can't I lose the weight??? I exercise for 30-60 minutes a day, doing what I love, treadmill, Zumba and even just started P90X and I am failing! I want to dig a hole and just cry. I know that it took years to put the weight on, but it has been over 7 months and not one pound? One diet after another. Almost 6 years of diets and I can't see results. What am I doing wrong? My doctor prescribed me Alli but I ruined so many pairs of underwear that I stopped taking it. I am biting people's heads off, I am crying for no reason and trying not to just give up. I keep looking at the Ticker and it says Pounds lost: 0.0. How bad is that? I am still trying to figure out if the Lap Band surgery is my final answer. Praying on it and will know after my meeting on Saturday.