Tuesday, February 07, 2012
This past week I've been confused. Some days I feel hungry but not at the same time. (Hopefully some of you know what I mean by that.) It's this weird feeling of wanting to eat something, but yet you're not actually hungry. The other day I couldn't even tell if I was hungry or full! I'd just eaten, and I didn't even clean my plate (the food wasn't very tasty), and I was just trying to decipher what my body was telling me.
Eventually I realized that I was physically satisfied, but my tastebuds were crying out for something more. I wanted to taste something "worth it", something that was delicious. So yes, I wasn't actually hungry, but there was still this feeling of unsatisfaction. The need for something more. Not more food, but more taste. Does that make sense?
Through spark I've been realizing that one of my biggest weaknesses is when I have something sweet and something salty at the same time...then it becomes a never ending cycle as I go back and forth between the two! I love the differences between the sweet and savory.
As I've become more conscious of my eating habits and food, I also realized that I always make sure that my last bite is a delicious one. Whether that means saving the juiciest bite of chicken or making sure I have enough sauce for my last bite of pasta, the last bite I eat has to be the best, otherwise I feel unsatisfied.
So I'm learning more about myself--it's not about eating to feel full, I eat because I like flavors. I enjoy tastes, and if I really like the flavor of something, I'll continue to eat it just to experience it one more time. and then just one more time. last time, I promise. okay really now, I'm done. Ok I'm done, I'm done-- please take the plate away from me!
Have you guys ever felt the same? With a chef for a dad and a mom who cooked Chinese food with the best of them, I grew up with great flavors every night, and grew up with an appreciation for food. But now I'm realizing that this world is just too tasty for my own good! Now my challenge is to figure out how to be satisfied with flavor in only a few bites, instead of wanting juuust one more. Thankfully I've been finding better veggies that I LOVE and that taste wonderful (kale and swiss chard!) so maybe I just need to eat less meat and more tasty veggies. hmm.
Mantra: Nothing tastes as good as healthy feels.
The question is--Do I believe that?