Monday, February 06, 2012
I am so damn depressed I dont know what to do. I have lost 30 pounds over the last few months but now am gaining it back and i dont know how to stop it right now. All I want to do is sleep, work, and unfortunately when I'm home eat. I've had to leave a relationship of 13 yrs that I thought would not end, and never thought they would treat me this way. I've been gone now for 7 months and only 2 times in the 7 months have they contacted me. It's like I dont exist to them anymore. I just cant take this and i dont know what to do. I have never been alone and it's hard when your my age to change. Sometimes I have good days but mostly i just dont want to do anything. I've lost so much in the last few months I dont know how to go on. I've lost a family(they had kids from a previous), the person I thought I would grow old with, and my very best friend ever. I just dont know what to do.
It's been easier before to come back and start over but this time I just dont know.