First of all thank you everyone for your kind comments on my blog
Usually my weigh in day is a Tuesday of each week.
However I am out all day tomorrow so I weighed today instead.
Was really pleased to see I had dropped 4 more pounds. since my real weigh in of last Tues.
I have NO idea what happened when I made that mistake of weighing on Sat and it showed a gain of 5 lbs. No idea at all!! I am going to put it down to just body fluctuation or something.
Today I weigh 371 lbs '26stone 3lbs'. That means I have now lost 17lbs
My starting weight was 384 '27 stone 6lbs'
Really really pleased.
It is scary to think that if I had allowed my old self on Saturday, to let me binge when I saw that aweful gain.
Seriously my old self would have done it. Truth be told I would have had a hard time starting again.. IF AT ALL. I was just like that.
I just told myself in the shop on Saturday. Keep going and it will be alright.
I am proud of myself for that as it would have been so, so easy just to let my internal voice win. You all know that voice that tell's you, see it wasn't worth it Zac. Go on treat yourself you deserve it. That kind of thing.
It is kinda wierd me reading what I just wrote. Can't describe it but it a bit like an outer body experience lol. It is like I am slightly looking back at a different person or something like that.
I was back in Morrison again today looking at all the food. I went back and fourth so many times. I must have looked a bit shifty as I was walking up and down for ages.
Really did not know what to buy. Last week I ate loads of salad stuff and veg etc. Problem I am having is a lot of it is starting to look a bit boring.
That is a warning bell for me as I MUST not start to get bored. I know that much about myself. I have looked at some recipies on here which I will try.
Thing is though maybe as most of my life I have lived on process stuff its hard to shift. I don't know but I am a little worried about not finding a variety.
Do you start to just get used to eating lots more fruit and veg and stuff like that? As I said last week I enjoyed it. Today a lot of it just seemed boring. Does any of this make sense?
Do you all manage to find a real variety of things to eat?
I did fancy buying this large cornish pasty to have with stuff for dinner. I looked at the calories and thought, 560 not so bad. Then I put it straight back when I realised it was 560 for half of it lol. I used to love those! Shocking how many calories were in it.
I then looked at other things I like. Man the calories are silly.
I can now see pretty easily how I got to this size.
Not saying I will never very occassionally have some of these things again. Just not now.
Once again I think calorie counting has opened my eyes.
So I am going in the right direction. I will be SO happy when I hit my second stone lost.
Last night I tried to do a push up. I knew I would not be able too. I am too big and no upper arm strength to do a real one.
I told myself the day I can do one real push up, will be an amazing day for me. Something small like that would give me a mega boost.
I have started to do those ones against the wall. No idea if they are effective. I want to start to build some muscle if possible . Don't have access to gym but will try and find things I can do at home to help build some muscle.
Anyway that is my news for the day.
Hope you all having a good day. :)