Monday, February 06, 2012
Today I read the perfect quote painted on the wall at the gym:
Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going.
What a great quote. The trick is to get to the point where you don't even have to think about it. Because if thinking is involved, choices may be considered. Then decisions are made, not always in the right direction.
This morning, as usual, I woke up in time to make my Body Balance class, but when I did I SOOO wanted to pull the covers over my head and go back to sleep. I have a standing appointment with myself. I should keep it. Then I thought about how good I feel after taking that class. Getting out of bed wasn't quite so difficult then.
At that point it occurred to me, my life has always been a struggle, a battle between me, myself, and I. Every thing, even simple tasks, required coaxing and cajoling. I never realized that others didn't struggle like I did. I never knew that others didn't have a wet blanket over every day of their lives. But I guess that's the difference between minds with untreated depression and "normal" minds.
Last night it occurred to me how "normal" I feel since finding the proper medication. I realized that I'm not the same person I always thought I was. Everything does not have to be a struggle. I don't need to constantly push and push myself to get things done. I can just make a list and cross one thing off at a time. I need to stop thinking like the old me and embrace the new me.
My first step this morning was a huge success! I got out of bed, ate a nutritious breakfast. Got dressed and out the door on time. Took my class, then did my first day of 5K training on the treadmill. Now, I'm back home and ready for my next project.