So I guess it’s been a while since I last blogged! So I thought I’d write again, so much has changed in a year!
So… After my last post back from 1.23.11 (!!), I had started running (using couch to 5K) and taking Spinning Classes, so I was working out 5-6 days a week. I was also eating about 1400 calories a day. I thought I should have been losing weight, but I wasn’t! I quickly got frustrated. I know things take time to notice, but my weight wasn’t budging at all. By the end of February 2011, I was beyond frustrated, I was on the verge of an all out Give Up. But, my husband had to go to LA for work, and wanted me to come with him. Since I had never been, of course I went! (And in style, flew first class!) We of course didn’t get any formal exercise while we were out there and ate out for every meal. I thought the trip would be rejuvenating, being in the California sun and all. But when we got back to Ohio, the bad eating continued. I was sliding down a slippery hill, and had nothing to grab on to. At this point I had been in a plateau for so long, nothing seemed to work. There were so many options of paths to take when you still have 40-50 pounds to lose, but can’t get anything to budge. My husband and I were out shopping one afternoon, and we stopped to have lunch at Steak n Shake (my favorite meal was chicken fingers and fries). I finally broke and told my husband how I was feeling. I was drowning. And I was lost. I didn’t know what to do. After talking about it, we decided to look at getting a gym membership. I was kind of terrified that I wouldn’t be able to break out of this. And I knew if I was going to, I wasn’t going to be able to do it alone. I needed help, STAT! Our aunt and uncle belonged to Lifetime Fitness, and we thought we’d at least go check it out. Of course, we fell in love instantly. They had no contract, so we could cancel at anytime, and it was pricier then we wanted to pay, but they had a lap pool, and they’re open 24/7. There were literally never going to be any more excuses. I could come here and workout at 9pm, or on Memorial Day, they’d be open! When new members join, they get a free health assessment. Pretty basic stuff, but you get your weight, strength, flexibility and body percentages done. A nice little visual when you’re struggling. Plus, I had always wanted to work with a personal trainer. I had been at the stage before, not being able to budge my weight, and not knowing what to do about it. I always thought it would be nice to have someone 100% focused on you for an hour, helping you and steering you. So I signed up for that too! I was eventually hooked up my still current trainer, Stephanie. She specialized in weight loss clients. She had been training for 7 years, used to be a vet tech, and now was also in school full time for Nutrition. Perfect! When I first met her, I explained everything about where I had been, what I’ve done so far, and what not to do with me: weight machines. She was very blunt with me. She told me right from the start that I needed to workout doing cardio for an hour, 6 times a week, plus meet with her for full body strengthening once a week. She also wanted me to keep a food journal and turn it in to her weekly. She would review it to see where we could make improvements. We would weigh every other week, to make sure we saw progress. And the biggest blow? No eating out! No cheat meal/week! And no fried foods! Not that this surprised me at all, it’s just still a shock to hear it out loud. So I did as I was told. And I’m still doing what I’m being told. When I started with her, I weighed in at 189 on March 19, 2011. Now, I weigh in at 157! I’ve lost 32 pounds with her so far and have gone down 2 whole sizes! It feels amazing! I couldn’t have gotten this far without her!
What’s the takeaway from this? Recognizing when you need help. It’s ok if you feel you can’t do it by yourself anymore. Sometimes we’re helping ourselves by asking for help from someone else. In my case, I opened up to my husband about my drowning and got the support I needed from him to do what I thought I needed to do to reach my goal. Also remember that this is a Journey. Steph reminds me all the time of this. She always tells me that this is a journey, and weight loss is meant to be hard, and meant to take a long time (forever!); that if it was something that happened over night, we wouldn’t appreciate it and we’d be back to our old ways. She says that even if she could change it for me, right now, she wouldn’t. Because I still have more to learn about myself.
So, please, everyone remember that this is a Journey! A true journey! Do the best you can, work hard, and pick yourself up off the floor when you slip. It’s ok to give yourself a break when it’s needed, and it’s totally ok to push yourself hard when you need to. Thank you all for listening, and thanks again for all your support!