Sunday, February 05, 2012
Saturday, January 28 was a big day for me. I stepped on the scale and saw 199. It was the first time I had stood on a scale and seen a number under 200 in probably 20 years, since I was in college. I have to confess I was pretty emotional. I cried for quite awhile and I even took a picture of the scale while I was standing on it. What a feeling to finally achieve something I had dreamed about for so long. I had tried so many times in the past to lose the weight and failed miserably on each attempt. This time something has been different and I have found the strength to stay committed. On that day I truly loved my scale. It was my friend.
Unfortunately, that feeling did not last long. Over the next several days the pounds began to creep back on, edging back up to 204 pounds by Wednesday. The same scale that had made me so happy only a couple of days ago was frustrating me and making me angry. It was now my enemy. It is the hardest thing to see those numbers on the scale go up when you are working so hard to eat right and exercising every day. My head knows it is probably just a little extra water weight or maybe even some more muscle being built, but
it sure hurts my heart and my spirit to have to keep working off the same pounds I thought I had already lost.
The weight loss journey is one big emotional roller coaster ride. There are days when you are flying high and there are days when you hit rock bottom. Losing weight isn't just about changing your diet and your activity level, you must also change the way you think. Some days you will love the scale and some days you will hate the scale, but it is important to remember that you are making positive changes in your life that are about much more than a number on a scale. On those days when your scale becomes your enemy, think about how it feels to buy clothes a size smaller, the compliments people have given when they notice you are losing weight, and how great it feels to do things you could never have done before the weight loss. Hang tough through the lows because just like a roller coaster ride, your next high is waiting for you at the top of the hill!
Just an added note: Today the scale became my friend again because it was back down to 199, but who knows what it will show tomorrow!