Sunday, February 05, 2012
I have always like the 1940s-1950s pin up girls. They had real bodies, they were flirtatious, there was a touch of burlesque, and they were sexy. I like them all from Rita Hayworth to Betty Grable to my all time favorite bad girl Betty Page. I even like the modern adaptations of the pin up who is tattooed. Anyway, I got an email today about a local photographer who specializes in pin up photography. My first thought was I wish I could do that. Then the voices in my head said I couldn't do that - I am too fat, I am not going to look anything like those ladies, etc. I closed the email and continued with my day. But the thought of doing that kind of photo shoot kept poking around in my head. I got to thinking that I could do it for my husband for a Christmas gift as he is a fan of the pin up girls too. I wasn't going to tell him....but I got honest with myself - while it may be a gift for him - this is for ME. I WANT TO BE A PIN UP GIRL.
So I told him what I want to do. He LOVES the idea and asked what more he can do to support me - (he is already super super supportive). I took a few moments and decided there was nothing more he could do...this is about me. I thanked him for his support and explained that it becomes more real when I start to talk about it out loud to others so I become accountable.
Later I spent a few minutes and started researching pin up clothing. I started with plus size and decided when it comes time to do this (shooting for October-November) I don't want to be a "plus size". I started looking at "normal" size clothing and found what is needed to be considered L-XL.
I have goals as far as my training and continuing the half marathons. I have started letting go of scale goals as they do not speak to what is going on with my body or fitness level. I now have a goal for a particular style of clothing and the measurements that are required to make it. I have a time goal.
By the end of 2012 I will be my own pin up girl - GO ME!