Saturday, February 04, 2012
It was a good and a bad week. Good for eating and exercise. Bad for everything else. I got my calorie burn for the week done by yesterday. But all week I felt like dog crap. My arthritis issues were on the fritz so bad yesterday. I woke up at 3 am crying yesterday morning, my hands hurt so bad. I love the warmth lately but holy hell does it take a toll on my body. Plus I couldn't get my wedding band off. Which made my hands hurt so much worse. When I first started on my weight loss journey, I wore a size 11 yes a huge man hand size 11. As the weight came off I have gotten gone to a size 7.5. So my wedding band is a 7.5 and it scares the bajesus out of me to have a ring size that small. I know it's the most normal size but sounds so constrictive in my head. Yesterday before work I went for a run to try to get the circulation going to my hands. Helped a little but no amazing changes. I could at least lift things with that hand at work. Work was insanely busy, we had an event going on downtown so it was nonstop go go go! Then my boss asked me to stay an hr later lol I said sure and I had Scott pick me up from work. I was on my bike and the thought of biking home and putting pressure on my hands made me sick to my stomach.
I got home and loaded up on my medicine, cried more and then went out to dinner with Scott. He was really sweet and drove and undid my seat belt for me. I felt like a tiny old lady struggling to get a shirt on with my bum hands. Felt so sick about my hands all day that I had no appetite to eat. Even though the event downtown was called Tour De Chocolate, did I mention that? Yes all you could eat chocolate sampling all downtown! Any other day that would have sounded awesome. Yesterday I could give a crap.
oooh to top it off, we got an email yesterday saying that 30,000 people signed up for the chicago marathon in the past 3 days! Usually it takes like 20-28 days to fill up. Not this year, 3 freaking days and there was 15,000 spots left! So my hand is throbbing, Scott tells me that him and his brother signed up and should he sign me up cuz it could be full by 5 pm. Do I even care? I think I care but I am too much pain to know if I care. I thought about it all day and then mentioned it to Scott later and he goes "Didn't seem like you had fun". I went berserk and told him he had no right to sign without consulting me lol Uughhh I am just one of these ppl who hates making a split decisions under stress. If I wanna buy something, I am gonna study up on it for weeks and look at all my options. Because I take what I do seriously, in every part of my life. I don't enjoy doing anything half assed. So telling me, sign up for a 4 month training process right now or you could miss out, is pretty stressful. On top of all my crying for the day. I signed up last night at 11 pm. I am not sure how I feel about it. I am not scared like last yr. Marathons are like anything u prep for. If you put the time and effort into the training then u will feel sure about it. That was my big stress for yesterday. It's just waking up at 4 am to exercise on your sparse days off. And having your eating getting all weird because you u gotta learn to feed your body instead of feed your chubby girl brain lol At least now I know how do it from last yr and I can correct mistakes I made in the past. My mother in law just celebrated 35 yrs with State Farm and it was published that her two sons and daughter in law are marathon runners. Pretty darn cool!
Anyway I have today off and I feel 80% better! I already did 3 loads of laundry today, made tuna salad and working on a soup. Also planned for the spark Feb meeting and announced the date on facebook and our local group! Oh I also got my wedding band off, THANK GOODNESS! Today is gonna be good!