Friday, February 03, 2012
I don't know.... it seems like I do nothing BUT hard work. I work an extended day at my regular job so that I may have every other Friday off. When I come home, my partner immediately wants to eat. Then, I have maybe an hour to "clean out" my email and do other stuff that *I* need to do (including washing my dinner dishes) before my partner wants me to come and watch TV with her, or it's time for me to go to the gym, which has been mandated by my bariatric surgeon. When I get to the gym, I'm not one of these people who can do 30 minutes and leave.... I put in a whole 30 minutes on the treadmill, plus cool down, and 30 more minutes on the stationary bike, plus cool down. Then, I try to do some strength training like leg presses, and triceps kick backs, and resistance band stuff, lat pulldowns, etc. I should also be "swimming" or water jogging, but sometimes there just isn't enough time to do that, too. HARD WORK. I get home about 9:30 - 10:00 pm, just in time to fall into bed and get up at 4:45 in the morning to go to my job again. On weekends, up until recently, it seemed that we would spend ALL Saturday shopping. We'd hit WalMart for the bulk of the stuff because it's so much cheaper, then King Soopers for things WalMart doesn't carry, like CarbMaster Yogurt and Polanner Sugar-Free Preserves with Fiber and higher quality fruits and vegetables, and then Safeway for Lucerne low fat and fat free cottage cheese. That left Sunday for doing something Debe needed to do so she doesn't feel so house bound. So, virtually no time for me to do what I need to do. In the past few weeks that has changed as Debe has taken to doing the shopping by herself on the way home from her medical Qi Gong appointment on Sundays, which is really helpful and gives me a couple of hours to do what I want to do, but usually that's trying to clear out my email, which doesn't get me my new rosaries made.... :-\ I am suffering from quite a bit of frustration, and not a little bit of self-pity, combined with a little bit of depression (from being peri-menopausal, I think).... and that, along with an addictive personality (if I put just ONE chocolate or piece of taffy or tablespoon of sunflower kernals in my mouth, I will keep going back until they are gone), is giving me trouble in coping with staying on "the path". It is TRULY hard work staying on the path. But, I have options. I have support groups, registered dieticians I can work with, stuff like that. AND, I am down 5 pounds since my visit with my surgeon the day before Thanksgiving. That helps a little bit.... but 5 pounds in 2 months just isn't good enough for me. It should be 8 pounds or more in 2 months.... and so I stuggle.