Friday, February 03, 2012
I have a plan for Saturday that I am so excited about, yet I am also a little nervous and apprehensive, too. This week I have really started focusing on my goal of completing a marathon at the end of May, and I decided to do my long runs on Saturdays when I have time and my husband can watch the kids.
The thing that is exciting and scary about this, is that it will be my first solo long run. My trainer has been guiding me and pushing me when I needed it. She's waited for me and encouraged me, and I appreciate her so much. But, she's not training for a marathon. She's done several already and has no interest in doing another, and I wouldn't expect her to.
And, honestly, I kind of wouldn't want her to.
This is something I am doing for me. I want to test my limits, exceed them, and have that moment of pure satisfaction and pride. I want (and need) to do this on my own. I definitely needed the push and the support. I needed someone to plant the seed that a marathon was even possible and that I might be capable. But, now I need to let go.
I realized this week that I have been relying on her to go running. I was only running once a week when we scheduled a run together. If I am going to do this, and do it right, I need to run more often, and I need to run alone.
I'm excited. I picked a route and tracked the miles. There are a couple killer hills, but I'm kind of excited about tackling them. There are a couple huge hills in the marathon, too, so good training. Plus, the hills are in the beginning, so I get to look forward to almost all downhill running for the last 2 miles. I'm excited to go alone, go at my own pace, and push myself. I haven't really done that, and it sounds great. I'm looking forward to a little time alone.
I'm shooting for 12 miles this weekend. I know I can do it, and I don't want to push too hard too soon, especially not on my first solo long run. I've learned a lot about fueling and eating for recovery since the last 12.5 mile run, and I think I have a good plan for that, too. I'm bringing something small and high GI for the run. I have a drink and a shake that my trainer recommended for immediately after, and we're going out for sushi for lunch. I was discussing post-run meals with my trainer, and she said high GI and protein and that sushi is a good option. (She knows I love it.) We were planning to go out anyway, so this seems like it will work out well. I'll let you know how it goes.
I am already learning so much about myself and my body, and I find it all fascinating. The human body is such an amazing thing, and so is the mind. I can't wait to see how far I can go and what else I will learn during this process.