Thursday, February 02, 2012
Today was a very emotional day for me. I just felt drained like I had nothing left. Like I was hollow inside. In the past I have tried to fill this void with food, like most binge eaters do. I started of the day not even tracking my food and was setting myself up for failure (Maybe as an excuse so I could give up.) But I actually tried the positive talk thing I have read about on a sparkblog and stopped what I was doing and made a tracking sheet so as not to give myself an excuse to quit.
I can't say I was perfect today, far from it. Not a lot of nutrition in what I eat, but I stayed within my calories. On several occasions today where I felt the urge to turn to food for comfort I fought it back. Towards the end of the night the urge came on real strong, (since the matter I was dealing with was coming to a head) I started to binge and had a biscotti instead of the healthy dinner I had planned. I wanted to go for another. Not out of hunger mind you, totally and completely out of emotion. But I stuck to the plan steps and it worked. In the end I play with my kids and did my workout and the urge to binge subsided. For me today was a major triumph and it feels pretty good.