Thursday, February 02, 2012
did it really have to take me the full month of january to get over my hang-ups and back to the gym? sheesh.
well, i finally went, yesterday, and did a pared down version of the first workout program my trainer gave me wayyyy back last march. now, i would feel really bad about not going to spin this morning, but let me tell you... i'm so sore today i can barely walk. i can barely breathe, okay? so i'm going to cut myself some slack - better to have gotten over my anxiety and started my strength training again and missing a spin class than losing the other two to one hour of cardio (it's better this way in the long run).
i think part of what is motivating me to just suck it up and DO IT is knowing that ashlee, a former close friend with whom i had started working out/seeing a trainer with last year, someone i've always beaten at eating well/toning up than, has been doing this university fitness challenge thing with some other girl and there is no way that i am going to let the semester end with her looking better than me! heh. a bit malicious, maybe? but competitive, helllllls yeah. so apparently that's all i needed to get me going, but i'm feeling good and ready to take the next few months on!
but i DOOOO need to speed up the weight loss if I am going to meet my goal on time. i should be below 130 by now and i'm just hovering at 130.2 lbs, which means i'm going to have to watch what i eat like a hawk.
ALSO. i must continue to remind myself that while i won't be one of 'those' brides, i don't want to be a fatty mcbutterpants when i get married either, especially if i want to wear that edwardian summer lawn gown i have... the one that has a 23" waist...