I haven't worked out in two weeks. Okay, I confessed.

I'm starting to feel sluggish and stressed out again. I can feel the old nagging negativity creeping back in. I don't like it...they are like clingy shadows in the background pulling me down.

When I got on the scale yesterday, I had those two pounds back that I had lost in the initial gung-ho. They might be a factor of the medications from the wisdom teeth between the antibiotics and pain pills?? I had the infection in my bottom tooth for about a week which led to the surgery with another week of recovery. It certainly can't be from overeating! But, they. are.definitely.notwelcome.

All those nasty thoughts ran through my head like: why bother if they come back anyways? all that work was for nothing? why am I even trying? I should just give up.

Saturday will be the day when I'm allowed to be working out again. It's been so disheartening. You're not supposed to work out for at least a week after wisdom teeth extraction because raising your blood pressure and too much strain on your mouth can dislodge the vital blood clot. Sorry if that's too gross. But, apparently, if you lose the blood clots, you can end up with a very painful condition called dry socket. The hole is exposed to the bone and takes twice as long to heal.

Luckily, it seems I'll be in the clear for that. It's just a waiting game and a battle with my negative inner monologue.