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Rant/Depression


Tuesday, January 31, 2012

I graduated in 2002 with a BS and in 2004 with a M.Ed. I am basically working as a nanny and stay at home mom for children that are not mine. I have significantly less student loans to pay off but have been paying off credit cards for the last five years that my ex husband maxed out.

I am 32, single, childless, fat, and living with my parents. Not only that, I have a job where I am not appreciated and don't even pull in 2K a month either and have a master's degree. I feel like I wasted too much time in school for the crappy amount of money I get paid. I am somewhat afraid to try for something else because I am afraid I will fail. I failed at my marriage and at controlling my weight. I feel like I will never get out of this rut and that things will never change.

Everything feels completely out of control in my life. I am angry, sad, depressed, lonely.
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KATIBUG49 2/2/2012 10:28AM

    Don't put yourself down, you have one of the most important jobs out there, you are taking care of our most precious resource. How would these parents work without some like you! You are making a difference everyday in someone's life & believe me they are making one in yours. You can have the children exercise with you if they are old enough, children love it.
If you are truly not happy in your profession, have you set down to really think about what you would like to do? Once you get in a home of your own, you can open up your own family childcare business. You can do anything you set your mind to do, don't ever put yourself down - you can be your worse enemy or your best friend - it's up to you!

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JUDYAMK 1/31/2012 10:24PM

    Why are you afraid of fear? The fear itself is stopping you because you are allowing it to make you a VICTIM. You are exactly right things will NEVER change for you unless you MAKE a change.What is it going to be you in the same position you are in now for the next 20 years.or are you going to finally STAND up & fight like - - - - it is all up to you NO ONE else.Come on get up & do something about it, this is NOT what you want for the rest of your life is it?
emoticon if you really want it. How bad do you want a change in your life?
Judy

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UMBILICAL 1/31/2012 10:15PM

  Fear is the biggest block to success and happiness.

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DEBBIEOLMOS57 1/31/2012 10:08PM

    i am 55 years old and have a BA but never had i been taken serious life is full of surprises. just hang in there and do your best

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