Since the Sunday ďpass outĒ episode at the gym Iíve been struggling with my thoughts a bit.
I did some reading about neurocardiogenic syncope. It appears that thereís more information available now than there was in 2004 when I was first diagnosed.
One of the potential causes that I read about is low sodium.
Anyone that knows me at all knows that Iím all about low sodium! I buy ďlow sodiumĒ or ďno salt addedĒ versions of anything and everything that I can.
Heck, Iíve swapped out the salsa that we use three sparking times so that I can enjoy taco salad without hating the scale the next day.
Sodium kills my weight loss!
The maximum recommended amount of sodium is 2,300 mg a day.
I try to keep my sodium level less than 1,500 mg a day because that helps keep the scale moving in the right direction.
If I have a day where I eat 2,000 mg of sodium (or more) I can expect to see a gain of anywhere from one to three poundsÖ and it takes DAYS of drinking tons of water to get back to my previous weight.
I was talking to a co-worker about the neurocardiogenic syncope thingÖ and she said that her teenage son was just diagnosed with the same thing.
His episodes manifest a bit differently thoughÖ heís been passing out upon standing up suddenly.
Guess what the doctor told him to do?
Increase his sodium intake.
Guess what the doctor prescribed him?
I am really hoping and praying that this was an isolated incident.
Iím hoping that it was a combination of overexertion and overheating (even though I didnít feel like Iíd overexerted myself... my HRM clearly showed that I'd burned more calories than usual) and that it has nothing to do with my sodium intake.
I have a doctorís appointment with my primary care doctor on Monday so weíll see what he says.
But until then Iím trying not to panic and Iím trying to keep the irrational, destructive thoughts at bay.
Today I was thinking, ďWhatís the point?Ē
Why should I bother eating right if Iím going to have to increase my sodium intake and I wonít be able to lose weight?
Whatís the sense in working out if I canít really WORK out?
Then I thought about how I gave away all of my ďfatĒ clothes and how that might have been a mistakeÖ you know because if I canít push myself during my workouts without passing out how am I going to get any smaller?
Iím trying to tell my brain to think about this logicallyÖ
I have been eating like this for MONTHS!
I have been working out like this for MONTHS!
And Iíve had ONE episode!
Itís not time to panic just yet and start driving myself crazy. (But thatís what Iím doing!)
Now, if I can just convince my brain to accept the logical side of this instead of the irrational side.
That is a little difficult though because Iím scaredÖ
Iím scared that Iíll have another episode the next time I go to the gym to workout.
Iím scared that I will have to up my sodium intake to prevent another episode.
Iím scared that increasing my sodium intake will slow or completely stop my weight loss.
Iím scared that if I am not able to push myself during my workouts that I will get bored and wonít want to go to the gym at all.
Iím scared that I will gain this weight back and that all of my hard work will have been for nothing.
Iím scared that I will end up disappointing myself and everyone else thatís been cheering me on during this journey to get healthier.
Iím scared that my newfound happiness (that I achieved through eating right and working towards making myself healthier) will slip away.
And Iím scared that if I donít get this off my chestÖ Iíll eat those sparking Pop-Tarts that are still in my lunch bag! LOL
Now that Iíve gotten that all outÖ
I think the Pop-Tarts will survive another day.