Tuesday, January 31, 2012
So, this blog is some time in the making. Every day I sit down and think of all the things I have to write about to cement things in my brain and then never do it. Either I'm putzing about on the internet, working on my web page, convincing myself I don't have time before my next workout session, or get distracted by the bunny or ...
Lots of stuff.
I'm beginning to think that one of my goals should be to write a blog update at least three times a week on some topic or another involving this journey.
To begin -
A) I noticed a trigger a few weeks ago. I was on my way back home from a meeting down in Ames. Usually I have to pull off at an exit to get my car, since I pick up my boyfriend on my way down to the meeting. Occasionally, I have to stop at the Kum-n-Go for gas, the special trash bags, etc.
On this particular time back, it had been a long meeting. We'd had a recruitment day and had spent several hours running around and talking to people. I had brought snacks, but nothing that would tide me over for the six or so hours of this. Upon approaching the exit and remembering the gas station, visions of candy bars were dancing in my head. I was practically salivating over them, not listening to what the boyfriend was talking about.
That's when it hit me. I didn't really WANT the candy bar. Yes, the peanut-buttery-chocolate-crunc
hy combination sounded like heaven at the time, but I was just hungry and that was my body's most efficient way to get calories in me that it could manage.
That's when the second thing hit me. I didn't have to do it alone and I had a proven resource for support sitting right there next to me in the car. I actually talked to Vincent about it who, like the wonderful man he is, proceeded to tell me about all the reasons I didn't want it and assured me (and the calorie craving beast) that there was food waiting to be reheated at home, I only had to wait another ten or so minutes and I could have something that I wouldn't beat myself up about later.
B) I re-evaluated my program yesterday. I've been feeling a lot like I've been coasting lately. It's equaled no weight lost and no inches lost, though both each have stabilized. I decided it was time to step it up. I have the time, being primarily a job hunter at the moment, I might as well take advantage of it.
First, I made myself some new rules.
1) Be up by 8:30am 5x a week. - this one's tough. I'm not a morning person and getting up has always been difficult for me, even when I had a job that demanded I do it. It's even more difficult when I don't have a reason. It's good for me, though, and I'll get WAY more done.
2) Exercise 3x a day (at least). - usually in about 2 hour intervals. One around 9, one at 11, one at 1ish. Usually each is only a 20-30 minute video.
3) Practice belly dancing 2x a week - more difficult than one might think, considering I'm fairly shy, but I want to get over that. Also, it gives me a good exercise for when I'm at SCA events.
4) Coke restricted to 1x week - If I cut it out entirely, I won't stick with it. If I can budget it to 1 time, though, I can plan when that one time will be and it becomes a bigger deal and more of a treat.
Next, I realized after a week or so that I was burning way more calories than I said I was aiming for in my tracker. This did two things; first it made me lazy. Once I'd hit the ridiculously low number, I could easily talk myself into slacking off of exercise because it wouldn't affect the meal plan I had set up, and then entered a guilt spiral about it usually leading to either over-training or binging. Either way I wound up cranky, tired, and exhausted all the time.
So, I re-evaluated my plan. I set the fitness tracker to the number of calories I actually would burn in a week (4000 rather than 2400, and it's still a smidge low to make up for fluctuations in weather when I can't get outside for a walk.) It increased my nutritional intake by two hundred calories, not only making my body better equipped to deal with the punishment I put it through because I was actually feeding it enough to make up for it, but also giving myself a little more leeway in my plan so I was able to eat food I wanted to eat. It's amazing what two hundred calories can do to open up your food options, especially when it takes your low end from 1200 calories to 1475.
I still really need to give this a few weeks to settle in and see if it makes a difference in my weight loss, but I already feel better today. Not as tired, more ready to work. Hopefully, it'll keep up.
But I'm due for another video. ;0)