Monday, January 30, 2012
Instead of making New Year's Resolutions this year, I chose a word to work with, live with, explore and discover during 2012. The word I chose, or maybe that chose me, is connect.
Definition of connect:
1. to join, link, or fasten together; unite or bind
2. to establish communication between
3. to cause to be associated, as in a personal or business relationship
4. to associate mentally or emotionally
I suffer from disconnection in many parts of my life. I see the disconnection and compartmentalizing right there in the phrase "many parts of my life." Shouldn't it just be "my life?" There are so many things I would like to do, projects that I start but then allow to fall away because they take time, effort, and energy. And for whatever reason, that scares me. Writing... painting... dancing... designing... my passions that would require me to put myself out there. Fear disconnects me from these passions. Perhaps because it feels safer to sit on the sidelines and watch, I have disconnected myself from my own desires.
Losing weight and becoming healthier also takes a lot of personal commitment and energy. My unhealthy self keeps me disconnected from my health. In order to control my eating I have to connect to why I overeat or why I choose the foods I do. In order to exercise, I have to connect to my body, to feel the physical sensations and signals it sends me. Those things feel overwhelming to me.
So this year I am on a journey to connect. I want to connect with my emotions and my body. I want to get off the sidelines and connect with my passions. I want to unite my spiritual and physical selves into one whole, uncompartmentalized, healthy Me.
To do that, I joyously embark on this journey, knowing that this is but one path to explore and enjoy in my life. I know that in the journeying, I will connect.
My stepping stones this week will be:
Physically - drink 64 ounces each day
Spiritually - internalize the connection with water
Physically - exercise 10 minutes a day
Spiritually - internalize the connection with my muscles
Mentally - write down one thing to be grateful and joyful for every day
Spiritually - internalize the connection with the feeling of joy that comes from acknowledging the good things in my life