Wow. Wow. That's not an excited Wow. It looks like this: Wow.

So monday I took the kiddo to the dr and we talked about his meds and about how it's not lasting all day and he has (the stupid stupid stupid) state (BS) tests coming up and he'll need a little more focusing.

He's dyslexic, not really ADD and not ADHD, but he takes meds to keep him focused so he can organize stuff in his head. First of all, I HATE HATE HATE it! I don't like him to be on meds. But he's doing better and he's passing A's and B's after having a miserable year last year.

Anyway, we upped his dose. He's been off. A little edgy. Yesterday after school and errands, he melted down.... down to the ground. Hubby, well he doesn't handle these things very well.... neither do I really. But I'm better at setting boundaries about it than him.

It ended up being about a 3 hour melt down. Complete with yelling and screaming and door slamming and beating his head against the wall. And me feeling helpless. Very Very Helpless. (and him too.... he feels helpless and probably that no adults can help him )

I could barely wrap my head around the situation or any of us recover from it when the scout troop came over for the project we're working on. Oh.How.I.Need.To.Go.To.Bed.At.
This.Point *SIGH*

Today the sweet boy emerged. YAY! Complete with a smile and a happy day. I got them packed and out the door, I started making breakfast when my phone rang, it's my sister, she says she doesn't have me down as RSVP for my nieces birthday party, I said it's because I didn't know about it. LOL

So a little detour in my day....

My guys were getting ready to camp, it's a mandatory boy scout camp thing.

I had planned to eat breakfast and get my run in, then shower and go to the store and then do some sewing.

Well, what happened was I ate breakfast, made my grocery list, took a shower, got ready for the day, drove across the metroplex to the party at a barn petting zoo thing. It was fun!! We got to see goats and sheep and chickens and horses. Not just see, but pet and feed. It was awesome. And messy.

I planned to go to the store right after the party, but I smelled like farm. So back to the other side of town, shower and grab my stuff. To the store I go.... Well, three stores.

Then home. Whew!

Without hesitation I changed and did a quick warm up on the elliptical, then I hopped on the treadmill and got to banging it out. I did a little HIIT as well. A little slower a little faster a few water walks a few adjustments but a great run!

At the end I wanted to slow down, and well guess what comes on my iPod?

Push It.

And I did. I upped my speed a bit, and I ran it out!!

63:06

5 miles

Then a bit of a walk

10 minutes for another .30 miles

12:37 amm (WOOT!!)

450 calories burned

Not many aches or pains to talk about, but I know that I'll feel it in the morning!

I DID IT!!

I ran all 5 miles! I can do it!! YAY!!

I haven't done that in a long time. I finally feel like I'm back!! I've been pussyfooting around with C25K and in some sort of training for too long. Now it's time to just run!

I let go of my expectations.....
I let go of a run schedule. If I run, I run. If I don't, ok.
I'm on a race schedule, yes, but honestly it doesn't consume me. And I'm not following someones plan. it's just my own. Run 3 days a week. I like to run 2-3 miles during the week and then a long run saturdays. I'm not focused on time or what pace I'm running. I run at a comfortable pace. I try for 13mm, if I make it great. If I don't, it's ok. I don't care, really as long as I get my run done. I let go of a time. Which is working out great for my spark fitness minutes! HA!! It could take me 40 minutes to run 3 miles! LOL

Anyway, I'm excited I ran all 5 miles, I feel like I'm really ready for my race next weekend and it gives me a glimpse of really being able to run my first 10K!

So.Excited!

Now if I could only sleep..... with hubby gone I can't sleep at all. AT ALL! ugh! Tomorrow will be a long (rest) day! :)

WOOT 5-miles!! I did it!!