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So many emotions!

Friday, January 27, 2012

It has been more than six months since I've last blogged here. And pretty much the same since I even tried. I've been eating like a ravished sweet-aholic, I have done NO exercise. Wow, none. And I even started drinking soda again. (Don't worry, still haven't had fast food in 5 years!!)

Anyway, lets backtrack a little. On Valentines day of 2011, I got a job working at my local grocery store. Minimum wage, part time, cashier. (It wasn't much, but it paid for our wedding which is awesome!) In April I moved to the service desk for customer service and by May I was in the cash office. (Woohoo!) I felt proud and excited that they saw my potential so quickly and I completely excelled at EVERYTHING.
Then it started. The backstabbing. The drama. The cattiness. TThe favoritism. he problem: it's all stemming from my immediate boss. My emotions were everywhere. Angry.Sad.Confused.
I finally asked to transfer departments because I couldn't take it. I was rejected because "I was too vital". Yet, they *cough*she*cough* continued to act the same. I asked four other times to switch departments - most recently was just over a week ago. I was denied again.

I started ranting this week about my boss to anyone who was in earshot. I didn't care anymore. And you know what? EVERYONE had stories of how she has wronged them. None of us had ever talked about them before though.

This morning was my last straw. I was crying w/in being there 15 minutes. I texted my husband all day, and we decided it was time.


I have bills to pay, and nothing lined up in the future. But I do not care. I made a list of 20+ staffing agencies within 30 miles and I'll scour all next week. Anything (besides food, ew, I hate food) will be better than this.

And this is where spark comes in! I came home feeling nervous, excited and scared. I hopped on my email and my email was FLOODED! All from spark members telling me I'm great and to keep it up and to follow my heart :) Noone even knew what a big day today was for me, yet it was the PERFECT day to be acknowledged!
The very first spark email I opened had the greatest advice ever

"Always do what you are afraid to do."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

THANK YOU spark friends! I'm doing it!
And, I'm doing this too! Yesterday, I tracked half of my food for the day. No, thats not great, but by golly I'm starting somewhere! Today maybe I'll get on that exercise bike.

I'm going to be 24 next week! Time is 'a tickin' and I want to be the best person I can be!

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    Life's too short to put yourself in that kind of situation. Good for you for moving on.
    1723 days ago
    Great news! Best of luck with the job hunt! You will find something awesome!
    1729 days ago
    I wish you all the best. You will succeed!

    1729 days ago
    Congratulations on making the decision to quit. The reduced stress should help with your health too. Good luck finding a new job. I'm sure you'll find something fantastic!
    1731 days ago
    Go, girl, go.
    1731 days ago
    You're awesome and I {heart} you.

    ps, I need a better shot of us at the Mexican restaurant. My cell phone one will work, but it's a little blurry. Did you guys get one??
    pps, I think of you each & every time I see Mt Baker. :-)

    1731 days ago
  • JAYDEE16
    Congrats, Miss MOD! :) Your energy is infectious, and you're showing LOTS of courage quitting a job that makes you miserable. It's NOT worth it to stay there. Have a wonderful weekend!
    1731 days ago
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