So many emotions!
Friday, January 27, 2012
It has been more than six months since I've last blogged here. And pretty much the same since I even tried. I've been eating like a ravished sweet-aholic, I have done NO exercise. Wow, none. And I even started drinking soda again. (Don't worry, still haven't had fast food in 5 years!!)
Anyway, lets backtrack a little. On Valentines day of 2011, I got a job working at my local grocery store. Minimum wage, part time, cashier. (It wasn't much, but it paid for our wedding which is awesome!) In April I moved to the service desk for customer service and by May I was in the cash office. (Woohoo!) I felt proud and excited that they saw my potential so quickly and I completely excelled at EVERYTHING.
Then it started. The backstabbing. The drama. The cattiness. TThe favoritism. he problem: it's all stemming from my immediate boss. My emotions were everywhere. Angry.Sad.Confused.
I finally asked to transfer departments because I couldn't take it. I was rejected because "I was too vital". Yet, they *cough*she*cough* continued to act the same. I asked four other times to switch departments - most recently was just over a week ago. I was denied again.
I started ranting this week about my boss to anyone who was in earshot. I didn't care anymore. And you know what? EVERYONE had stories of how she has wronged them. None of us had ever talked about them before though.
This morning was my last straw. I was crying w/in being there 15 minutes. I texted my husband all day, and we decided it was time.
TOMORROW: I AM QUITTING MY JOB!
I have bills to pay, and nothing lined up in the future. But I do not care. I made a list of 20+ staffing agencies within 30 miles and I'll scour all next week. Anything (besides food, ew, I hate food) will be better than this.
And this is where spark comes in! I came home feeling nervous, excited and scared. I hopped on my email and my email was FLOODED! All from spark members telling me I'm great and to keep it up and to follow my heart :) Noone even knew what a big day today was for me, yet it was the PERFECT day to be acknowledged!
The very first spark email I opened had the greatest advice ever
"Always do what you are afraid to do."
Ralph Waldo Emerson
THANK YOU spark friends! I'm doing it!
And, I'm doing this too! Yesterday, I tracked half of my food for the day. No, thats not great, but by golly I'm starting somewhere! Today maybe I'll get on that exercise bike.
I'm going to be 24 next week! Time is 'a tickin' and I want to be the best person I can be!