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Thursday, January 26, 2012

"Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful people with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan "press on" has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race"
Author: Calvin Coolidge

As my first "Sparkiversary" approaches, I am feeling much like I did a year ago - fat and uncomfortable and sort of out of control. This is a myopic view. It is easy to focus too much on food and weight. Being fat is a lot like being pregnant, without the joy - there is no setting it down. Everywhere I go, goes the weight. I have gained weight. I am not sure how much weight I have gained because my scale is broken. I found out my scale is broken by standing on it this morning and having it show that I have gained 18 lbs in 2 weeks. You can imagine my reaction. I then asked my youngest son to stand on it for me, just so I could see if it was just me, and, sure enough, it gave his weight as shockingly high as well. Honestly, I think it was probably good for me to get that little jolt. January tends to be a tough month for me, and this one has not been an exception. Illnesses (my son, then me), snow days followed by hideous wind/rain storms, etc etc. As I type this, I can feel myelf making excuses. So, as I sit here feeling like a giant, overfilled water balloon, I remind myself that, no matter how tired I am of making the same stupid mistakes, the same compulsive choices, it really boils down to two things: give in or press on. Well, since I did not title this blog "give in" you have probably guessed my choice is "press on". What does "press on" actually look like, in a practical sense?
1. complete today's "nutritional tracker" - the good, the bad, and the unneccesary
2. set my alarm for tomorrow's 5:45am workout, and set out my workout clothes&shoes
3. do a few more chores before turning in early
4. post this blog
5. spend some time connecting with Sparkfriends by reading their blogs
6. stop eating for tonight - I am uncomfortably full and I simply don't need ANY more food until tomorrow
7. drink lots of water
8. sit still for a few minutes and cope with any discomfort, physical or emotional, that crops up-food won't fix it, and discomfort won't kill me or permanantly harm me - it will pass and overeating will only make it worse, anyway
9. spend the time to get my youngest child off to bed in a good fashion - helping with homework, reading, saying prayers, tucking him in - and being patient in the process
10. letting go of the shame of being such a struggler in this area - it's embarrassing, it's tiring, and it's so tempting to only blog when I am doing well but if I adopt that rule, I sure won't be blogging a lot.

I thank you. in advance, for taking the time to read this, and for whatever patience you can summon up (though I don't blame you if you read my blogs regularly and are just annoyed - I know how annoyed I am with me). Either way, I will press on....... emoticon
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    Put that wet noodle away! Be gone! So much of your progress can't be seen in the mirror or on the scale! But, baby, believe me Progress is YOUR middle name!!

    Consider these huge improvements you've integrated into your new attitude & life:
    Accurate knowledge & facts about good nutrition which you didn't have before.
    New, positive fitness awareness and skills which you didn't have before.
    Strategies to help you cope with life's never-ending stress which you didn't have before.
    The list goes on and on....just open your beautiful eyes & SEE your progress!!!

    OK, sometimes you eat something you wish you hadn't.
    And sometimes you don't do the exercise you intended to do.
    There's only 1 perfect entity, you know, and you and I are not even in the running for that level of perfection. But we are so much better than when we started...not perfect...but a heck of lot BETTER.

    Jan. has been nothing but set-backs for me. Huge stress, physical injuries, succumbing to tempting food everywhere I go. So back to step 1: drink the water, strive for 5 veggies/fruits daily, do my PT, give myself a silly red star on the calendar if I get through a day without pop or candy (life-long addictions). And sure enough...some pounds fall off. Today we set out on a road trip, eating out 3 meals a day & riding in a car for 10 hr/day. And guess what? Some pounds will return. And when we get to our destination, I'll return to my oatmeal, yogurt, fruit, turkey, exercise & lose a few pounds. That's the reality of life. But Cannie, the inspiration we lean on, spoke the truth: We must PRESS ON! Even if we weigh more than we'd like, we are STILL healthier than we've been in a long, long time. And that, my friend, is the bottom line!
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    2216 days ago
    You are so right...those choices we make that are compulsive ones....almost always turn out to be BAD ones. I WANT that cookie, that piece of candy. I know I shouldn't have it. I know it will lead to obesity AGAIN. I DO NOT want to go down that road again. And yet I stuff it in my mouth. WHY oh WHY?

    We need to find the strength to say NO to the bad stuff, YES to the good stuff and keep moving our rears to burn those calories we eat when we are weak. I need that determination I used to have, and I am determined to get it back. How bout you? We CAN do this Carole!!!
    2216 days ago
    Who could ever be annoyed with you?? You're wonderful. I firmly believe that one of the most powerful things I do for healthy living is just what you do, finish the evening strong no matter how "well" I did that day. Tucking kids in , having a game plan for tomorrow....etc. so valuable. It keeps the downward spiral from happening and then there is really only one way to go.....onward. Great post. With the sickies and the bad weather, it is tough but now rehearsal for next year's episode is done and you have done so well with not panicking and simply accepting that things are as they are. Here's to tomorrow!!
    2217 days ago
    "8. sit still for a few minutes and cope with any discomfort, physical or emotional, that crops up-food won't fix it, and discomfort won't kill me or permanantly harm me - it will pass and overeating will only make it worse, anyway"

    So True! sitting still with feelings makes me feel like I am suffocating. So easy to turn to food! But there are lots of non food ways to escape for a few moments if need be....I'll get back to you on those. I still need to find out what works and do it. Most of the things that come to mind require time, and when I feel like I am suffocating my brain just does not think of anything else.
    I am so glad you are pressing on, and please do blog even when you don't feel like you are doing as well as you should, because you inspire the rest of us!
    2217 days ago
    I have all the faith in the world in you!
    2217 days ago
    Thanks for your comments on my blog! It's kind of you to say I should blog more - I did enjoy the blogging challenge.

    Like you, I have problems with blogging when I'm not feeling happy & shiny. So thank you for this blog. Persistence is the key to most things, isn't it? Sometimes I can do it & sometimes I just have the attention span of a gnat. Just logging in to Sparkpeople & seeing so many people determined to not give up is always good to see and motivating in itself. x
    2218 days ago
    Annoyed? No way, girlfriend! I totally hear ya, get it, and have felt the same way!
    I, too, feel like I should only blog about good! What's up with that? We are not all here
    because we are all positive, have the answers or in total control! We are here to work on these things
    And be supportive of each other through the process!
    I am here...

    2218 days ago
    Why would anyone be annoyed with you? You are only human. I Love you, you beautiful, Awesome Friend!! I always love to read your blogs...good can't happen every day! There has to be struggles and obstacles, so we can put up the good fight and as you say...PRESS ON!
    I need to work on 1,2, 4,5, and 10! (Wow...) I too shall Press ON! emoticon
    2218 days ago
    Shame in struggling? Hells to the no. Struggling = continuing to try, continuing to work. You have nothing to feel shame about. Quitting, now that's shameful.

    I think you are the awesomesauce and you've done so much and come so far. I think guilt and shame feeds a negative cycle and it is time to stop that stuff.

    If I can stop talking to myself with hate and venom, you can quit the shame game.
    2218 days ago
    After the tongue lashing you gave me on my latest blog....I guess I better "press on" emoticon

    Love you Cannie and NEVER find you annoying.

    You're an emoticon sparkfriend.
    You're an emoticon mom.
    You're an emoticon blogger.

    2219 days ago
    Fantastic and well said.

    I, too shall press on and take some of the steps that you have outlined, to make the journey easier.

    We will do this together!

    I, myself, have a case of the frumps, despite having just broken my plateau. Time for a bit of food involved. :-)
    2219 days ago
    Press on indeed! I had my own honey badger day on Friday. I didn't get my workout done til 11:15pm. I had a not so good day but I pressed on. That is what we can do together. You are never alone! Thank you for being you! emoticon
    2219 days ago
    I'm glad you decided to press on. We're so much better to have you here and you are too!
    2219 days ago
    Press on, indeed. Did you ever read Coach Anderson's personal story? It was not a linear road to success. You are right: persistence will get it done.
    2219 days ago
    annoyed??? You mentioned the honey badger one day (and today is my HB day)!!!

    your item #2 is a plan for success. I put my clothes out, all my technocrap that I love to use, my water bottle is full and in the fridge, shoes and socks are ready. My alarm goes off at 4:30 (if I am still in bed) and by 4:35 the treadmill is moving! I often wake up early and my legs are ready to run! It is the weirdest thing to wake up craving a run. Obviously my mind has snapped! Having everything ready takes away a lot of excuses and helps motivate one to follow through. And you know I love to get my sweet sparkly sweat going!!

    I guess if you ever get annoying I will answer your blog with something like...your blogs are getting annoying! But hey, I see little chance of that happening..about as mush as a honey badger caring!

    2219 days ago
    Nope, not annoyed. You are afterall just human and welcome to my tribe. I have to say though that #6 took my breath away and I believe that there was an audible gasp. Enough, I am not sure that is in my vocabulary. But I will ponder it and see what comes.

    I love that you are taking steps to change and writing them down. Good job!

    Keep in mind, my friend, "this too shall pass."
    2219 days ago
  • MISSB8604
    #8 is what I need to LIVE by:

    "sit still for a few minutes and cope with any discomfort, physical or emotional, that crops up-food won't fix it, and discomfort won't kill me or permanantly harm me - it will pass and overeating will only make it worse, anyway"

    If only...

    Thank you for this blog, as always you inspire me and I look forward to them.

    2219 days ago
  • SWIM53055
    I LOVE your blogs. Thank you for sharing them so openly / freely!
    2219 days ago
    I can so relate to what you are going through right now. I have been having a day by day fight with myself, I string together a few good eating days and then I fall back and have bad sugar and high carb days. You are brave to blog out how you are really feeling. I know that you have that inner strength; so vent and then PRESS ON. Thanks for saying what I have also been feeling. You have again given me the drive to Press on. emoticon
    2219 days ago
  • DEE0973
    Sending you lots of hugs and smoochies. Annoyed, never. I have told you numerous times that I love your bravery and vulnerability. You have already made the right decision to "Press On". Our company is using this slogan "Go Further" everyday make another good decision whether its to walk an additional 10mins, only have 1 hersey kiss instead of 2.....You can do this and we have all been there and some of us including me are still there and share in the struggle with you. Press on, the birds will be chirping soon and the tulips will look so beautiful swaying in the spring breeze. You can and will do this, in your time....We got you!!!! Much Love!
    2219 days ago
  • DOODIE59
    Press on. It's the only thing that gives us a chance at success. It's the positive flip side of Don't Give Up:) Press on. Keep going. Move forward. Keep picking up the threads until you have the material you need ... to make the life you want (to butcher an allegory).

    January won't last forever:) And even with Leap Year February is still the shortest month. Set yourself a Winter Month challenge, maybe with a rewarding soak at a local hot tub/spa/etc when a goal's been reached. ... anything to get you to the end of March and visions of SPRING!

    Your buddies have your back:)
    2219 days ago
  • DEBLYNN323
    Love your attitude! 'Press on' says so much about your ability and drive to make a conscious decision. We all have days/weeks when the blahs set in...accept it, try to make healthy choices, then PRESS ON!

    You can do it!
    2220 days ago
  • BECKYB73
    I LOVE that you are proactively addressing the issues that are causing you to feel so badly about yourself.

    I can tell you over and over again how amazing you are and how inspirational you've been to me- BUT unless you start thinking those things about yourself, well there's really no point.

    I KNOW you can not only LIKE yourself, but that you can LOVE yourself too. So go on and DO IT!
    2220 days ago
    We are in the same place right now - but, you know what?? I think we are doing just fine. You wrote to me the other day that we need to stay focused on the future - so let's do that together.
    January is almost over - history!! Spring will be here before we know it. So, let's look ahead - pick ourselves up when we trip or fall - and we will prevail!! Success is ours for the taking!!
    Do something special for yourself this weekend!! You deserve it!!

    2220 days ago
    I am no where near being annoyed with you! I love the "press on" motto - simple and easy to remember. These winter months are hard! February is one of my hardest - no weather, but not spring, ugh. I am going to use press on though - and I know you will too. You can do it Cannie! For you! You totally deserve to feel good about yourself! And you're right, blogging through the bad stuff is just as important as blogging when things are going right! We're here to support you. January is just about over - woo hoo!
    2220 days ago
    Im in the same boat (kayak?) with you....paddling upstream is a slow process and sometimes the currents pull harder than I can (or want) to paddle. Last week was bad..this week is better...I get tired my inability to maintain an even level of effort/intensity. You can do this...and so can I.
    2220 days ago
    This blog made me feel better....sorry, but you know what they say "misery loves company".
    Just keep thinking about spring, we do not want to feel like this...and we wont! emoticon
    2220 days ago
    We all go through this. But it's like you said, "Give in" or "Press on". I think that as hard as it seems sometimes, none of us can give in. And I am right there with you...January is hard!!! (After the beginning, anyway!) But hang in there, January will be over soon!
    2220 days ago
  • DAISY443
    !. Drink tea
    2. Hug a dog or a kid or a hubby or a teddy bear
    3. Get more sunshine
    4. Think what a difference you have made to your Spark Friends by being you!
    5. Remember that when spring comes we will all get better exercise and lose some of those pesky winter pounds.
    6. Get rid of those nasty, lying scales
    2220 days ago
    Until my latest health issue I had been struggling for about 2 yrs. and yes, it was embarrassing to me, but I never got anything but support from the people here. Most of us have been through it. I know I have more than once. It's so frustrating to eat when you shouldn't and not be able to stop or figure out why you're doing it. The minute I found out how much my heart disease situation has changed the desire to eat junk went out the window. I can't say it will last, but for now it's a big motivator. I have been listening to the Podcast "Inside Out Weight Loss" and it deals with every possible issue we have when trying to lose weight and keep it off. I want to start blogging about some of it, but haven't gotten around to it yet. You might find some insight there. Just don't give up and you will get there. Press on!
    2220 days ago
    not annoyed. grateful that you are here and hoping very much that you continue to press on and that you find more success in this year ... because you deserve it. and as Happy Woman said, please start treating yourself a little more as you treat us ... as sparkly friends with setback who need encouragement and not negatives. many hugs and much luck. you can do it.
    2220 days ago
    "Quitting wrinkles the soul as age wrinkles the body." We can't avoid the latter, so let's do our best to save our souls from the former. So, let's press on. Because even if we're talented, geniuses or educated, if we don't press on, we'll just be unrewarded and unsuccessful.
    Annoyed? Not me! Thankful? Yes, I am. For giving me a prepared list of some of the things I need to press on.
    I'm right here with you. Pressing on.
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    2220 days ago
    Please be kind to yourself, sweetie. You're kind to everyone else, probably because you believe that being kind is the right thing to do and that being supportive is much more helpful than being critical.
    Ergo, you can help yourself by being kind to yourself!

    You are NOT a giant, overfilled water balloon, and you are NOT making stupid mistakes.

    You are a lovely, compassionate, fallible human being struggling valiantly to grow and learn.

    Love yourself. Give yourself what you need -- whatever that is.
    2220 days ago
  • NUMD97
    Hardly "annoyed". We all struggle. It's the brave, I believe, that post honestly and not just about the weight gain or "annoyance". It makes the experience real. Not that we, as a community, are owed anything, but I find it difficult to follow those who proclaim tremendous amounts of weight loss, then hit a "plateau" and now finally admit that there has been a gain over the holidays of over twenty pounds -- noted because they admit to having lost 20 pounds recently even though the tracker hasn't moved. It only means to me, that they have not adjusted the tracker to reflect said gain in the first place. Does this make sense to you [I'm tired.]?

    I appreciate more your honesty. When you do well, we celebrate that as well. These are the best examples by far. Why? Because it teaches us how you have found ways to cope when things are not "perfect" or have not gone your way, as you say, for January, for example. You see things in a new light. You examine it all, and find new ways to approach an old problem for you. That's the kind of insight that I can appreciate and glean from.

    That's all.
    2220 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/27/2012 1:12:41 AM
    Cannie, you are the wisest Sparkliest Sparky friend I have, and you know you are in very good company emoticon
    So, I just want to ask you? If this had been my blog, what would you tell me?

    As Bren would say, Nuff said! Tomorrow, we will press on together!
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    2220 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/27/2012 12:17:18 AM
    I don't feel annoyance. I feel compassion, and the wish tha tyou'll find love in your heart for yourself, and not be too mean to yourself.
    2220 days ago
    Gosh - it all resonates with me, and given the choice between "give in" and "press on" - I prefer to press on, even though I'm pretty tired of myself at this point. But I'm not tired of you! Not at all! Your way of assessing things (good & bad) is a great help to me, really!

    2220 days ago
    Im here no matter whats going on. Pressing on is a good thing. Im with you, sister. (i hate being uncomfortable too). I hope you sleep well and have a great workout tomorrow and that you are feeling better. Hugs.
    2220 days ago

    Not just here for the good days or the funny stuff...

    No one else can walk this road for us, but we can be here for each other along the way... Give yourself a break. You've got a plan - now it's time to implement.

    2220 days ago
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