Thursday, January 26, 2012
My mom called me this am at 6:00. I was too asleep to anwser the phone. She and I and my brother had a falling out about 1 month ago. My brother is mean and abusive and I was hurt because she didn't defend me. She aske me to leave her house. Her mind has always been sharp as a tack. Well I finally spoke to her today. She has no memory of the incidence. She told me how weak she is and that she feels this is the end. My brother and family are living with her right now. I stayed with her for 5 years and burned out. I refuse to go over there as long as my brother is there. He grabbed my arm and draged me out of the house. I am in a quandry. I knows she needs and wants me but I have been verbally and physically abused by my brother since I was a little girl. I just will not tolerate it anymore. I think he needs to feel what it is like to care for her without me. My mother wants me to forgive but forgiveness doesn't mean you forget. His wife posted on facebook that I am trying to kill my mom. I did not respond. I have been getting calls from many family members because everyone knows she is closest to me. There is so much more involed. I need feedback. I want to show I am not that weak little girl anymore. He has taken over all of her finances and her homes. I have no say in anything. She had an open rental and he would not let me rent it. I went to an apartment for the first time in my life and was assaulted. I am just venting.......thak you for reading. I just want to stuff my face with food.