Exhausted and running on fumes
Thursday, January 26, 2012
I'm on campus for 13 hours a day, and for the past 8 days I have gone straight to the gym once my classes get finished. All the exercise is making me feel really good, but the healthy eating and caloric restrictions are definitely starting to take their toll on my psyche. I was always exhausted even before I started working out every day and eating healthy, but this past week has been especially hard. I know I should probably eat more, since I am awake and active for so long every day, but I am trying to lose weight, and rationalizing extra food only seems counterproductive in my mind. I have also been stuck for four or five days at 140 lbs, and I need to get over that hurdle somehow! Making the time for all of this meal planning and fitness planning has been difficult, but I have to say I really do enjoy it. I like looking forward to a meal I have planned, knowing that it won' t be some microwave dinner or taco bell that will hurt my stomach later.
I'm heading to Cleveland to see my boyfriend this weekend, and I have been really nervous to go, which is weird since I am there all the time! We like to eat a lot and have traditions and routines when it comes to food, though, so I don't know how I'm going to cross that bridge... I know that when it comes to getting our usual pint each of Ben&Jerry ice cream, I can opt for the mini single servings that they sell, but when we go out and order fried pickles and beer, how can I get around that? I may just give in and make Sundays my "cheat" day, but then I will have to be even more disciplined during the week, which is really hard since I work in food service!
All in all, I guess I feel good, but exhausted. Hopefully I wake up soon, I just stopped at Starbucks for a tall soy chai latte, 190 cals!