Thursday, January 26, 2012
Yesterday went well. I stayed on track with calories, I worked out with Richard Simmons yesterday. I know it sounds corny and no one uses him anymore, but I love him. When I was pushing 300lbs, I lost a lot of weight working out at home with Richard Simmons for two hours a day. Not quite to two hours yet, but this morning I am taking my exercise outside. Going for a long meaningful walk. Making it count one day at a time. I had a long talk with my husband yesterday. Turns out that the problems I have with the way he is eating is actually my problem not his. Because I feel the need to control the way I live I feel the need to control the way he lives as well. The fact of the matter is that I am a control freak and I feel like if I have to control my eating habits then he should too. But you guys (friends who have commented on my blogs) were right. I can't change him, he has to change himself. Men don't like to feel controlled and that is exactly what I was doing. So now we have decided that he does things his way and I do things my way even if I don't agree with the way he does things. I can cook the meals and if he doesn't want them then that's just the way it is, he can cook too. Feeling really good about myself today. I feel much better because the exercise and the food I ate yesterday was balanced and my blood sugar stayed below 200 all day. I woke up with a BG less than 200 as well.
Motto for today: live for today, worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
Focus on daily decisions, not what you are going to eat tomorrow, or what kind of exercise you will do tomorrow. But how am I going to make today count for me not against me. I control my emotions, no one else. Therefore I control whether or not I will allow my husbands unhealthy choices effect
me. I choose to not let his backsliding ways effect me at all.