Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Yesterday, I was terribly unfocused and maybe a little overwhelmed with everything that I have going on - house renovation, work, wedding planning, DIY details, second-guessing decisions. It seems like the only thing I could focus on was the bag of carmel corn that a rep brought to our office. I managed to resist it, but it wasn't easy.
Last night, I made dinner, measured my portions, and tracked it. Then, the fiance calls, says that we're being taken out to dinner as repayment for what he had been helping someone with all night. It was at one of our favorite restaurants - one that always brings you bread while you're waiting. I decided to go, and I had enough calories left for one roll. And I stuck to that plan.
Today's a new day and it has me thinking about how yesterday could have turned out very badly. I can remember times when reps have brought in goodies that I didn't resist, or when I'd go down to the vending machine and get myself a goodie. I remember a time when I wouldn't have stopped myself from having something extra...or a whole second meal...at that second dinner. And I can definitely remember guesstimating portions...or not even caring about portion size.
So how many calories was I eating?
I've always used Weight Watchers to track my food, so instead of knowing the calories in something, I knew how many points it was worth. When I joined Sparkpeople and saw my calorie range, I thought, "That's too much! I'll stay at the low end of that". Yet I find myself consistently falling into the upper middle. I am satisfied, and realize that I was overeating - a lot - and I wonder just how many calories my normal intake was. Maybe I'm better off not knowing...and never getting back to that again...