Tuesday, January 24, 2012
I have a friend who was recently bitten by the exercise bug. She is gung ho to get fit - well really skinny vs fit. I am listening to her talk about the big workouts she is doing and how far, fast, how much....and I am trying to be supportive. I have a bit of jealousy as I look at how I am doing fitness wise, weight wise, when I "look" at what she is doing versus where I am now. I had to tell myself to remember this is about me and not her. This is a person who has started lots of things and seems sincere in her desire to do things (when she decided to be a vegan), when she decided to workout before, etc. But to be honest over the years I have seen her start lots of things and not finish them. I will not be sucked in to a competetion against her (one that she would not even know existed but was there in my head). I am doing this for no one but me. This is me reclaiming my life, working through the depression, living to my potential. Who cares how fast she is picking up running, how many reps, etc....I have 2 half marathons under my belt. I do the training consistently when no one is watching, when no one is watching and there is no one there to cheer me on. I do the mileage when the kids are sick, I am tired, and there are many other things I want to do. I truely hope that she is able to stick with this - and it is okay if she is better than me - because ultimately this is about me and not her. Just as I will not compete against my sister in the number of half marathons we do or even speed - because again this is about me.
I need to keep my eyes on the one person I can change - the only person I have control of - the only one who really matters .....I will keep my eyes on the prize ...ME!