Tuesday, January 24, 2012
I'm just about ready to give up on pretty much everything. I am so stressed that even the smallest task seems unbearable. I just want to eat junkfood and play video games. I haven't completely blown my diet but I just don't care. I'm cranky and tired.
There's not a lot I can do to make the stress go away but I need some better coping skills. I didn't even realize I was stress eating until I had been at it for two days. I thought maybe it was hormones and giving in a little wouldn't hurt but I think it's a bigger problem than that.
I know I'm not sleeping well, mostly due to my cat who seems to be stressed himself. He's probably feeling my stress and trying to make it better. Makes me wonder what I am doing in my sleep to make him so worried. I didn't realize I was this wound up.
Sadly, it's the sort of stress that has to just be waited out (coped with). We have financial problems and I have to wait to see what's going to happen. I can't force any of it to be fixed and I don't wait well.
It's so bad that my son is stealing so that's something else. I know he worries about the money but I wish he wouldn't. I try to protect him from the worst of it but he's 14 and I believe he needs to understand the reality that is money.
I just wish it wasn't so bad.