Sunday, January 22, 2012
I was talking to an old friend the other day. It has been over 20 years since we lost touch with each other and we were doing the catch up game. I was telling him all the things I do including the fact that I do half marathons. As we were talking I said that I use the physical act of walking these half marathons as a physical manifestation of my stepping through the depression that is forever at my heels since Halleigh died. I have now completed 2 half marathons and am preparing for number 3 in March.
My new goal is to work up to eventually running a half marathon.
I have started to incorporate one minute running cycles into my walking regimen. The other day I did 3 one minute cycles and I could not have been more proud of myself. It does matter how fast or slow I ran - the point is that I ran. Eventually the minutes will add up, they will eventually become longer than 1 minute, eventually I will be able to do more just as when I first started preparing to do my first half marathon.
I spent some time and found a training plan to "start running" via the treadmill.
Tonight I did what I would have thought impossible - I ran for 8 one minute cycles tonight. It was not that long ago I would not have even attempted that feat. I had been living in the "one of these days" modes. The truth is I was scared that I was not going to be able to do it. At my size it seemed just an impossibility. But I saw a picture the other day on an athletic web site that showed a woman closer to my size at one point (she has since lost a lot of weight) - but looking at her picture she is marked like those doing triathalons (and she does them now)....if she can do that at her size - what I am waiting for? After Halleigh I am abundantly aware there is no promise of tomorrow.
I put on my "big girl panties" and got my courage on ....laced up my shoes, printed out the "run" schedule, posted it on my treadmill and away I went....and oh my gosh it was done before I knew it and I actually felt good!
Tonight was 8 minutes of courage ....and this is just the beginning!