Sunday, January 22, 2012
Okay after all that I am going through and been treated. Something happens to my husband, he woke up running for the toilet and was having a discussion with the Toilet Bowl God.... I mean he was in there forever. I brought him water and petmo and helped him be comfortable on the couch. I check in on him and I did some refills and watched him become a four year old whining kid. Now you guys are probably saying WHY? he does not help you nor was he by my side in the hospitals....it is because I am married to him and GOD will ask me did I help or gave him the same treatment...and I will be able to say...I helped and did what I could to have him feel better, cared for and in a loving way. I do not expect him to still do the same for me. I know he will go back to his selfish ways and treat me like crap but I know and God knows that I held up my vow,even when he does not. He is still sick and says when I get this I will not be able to handle it...um excuse me...I have a blood clot in my left leg from ankle to hip and a baby one in my RH side....still recovering from lumbar fusion on top of that I have to use a walker to walk right now....Now I can say I am more confident in myself about his telling me the night before my lumbar surgery when he told me he wants a divorce...now I can say, I'm going to agree about getting a divorce! without my heart aching..Now there is a step forward!