Sunday, January 22, 2012
I am not sure I will ever be able to unravel of the mystery of why I can sometimes start dieting successfully, making good food choices, eating moderate, healthy portions, and get on a streak where I can stick with it (17 days now but who's counting), versus the rest of my life, the vast majority of the time, where I feel compelled almost constantly to eat large quantities and "fill" some emotional/physical void.
It's like something flips a switch in my psyche.
I've had plenty of instances of being able to stay on track, be healthy, sometimes for months at a time, but there always comes a day where the switch gets flipped back. And stays back - usually long enough for me to regain all the weight and hey, it brought some new friends along.
Next thing, you're middle-aged and now have half your body weight to lose, and that's not even to be thin, just to be normal, and a long, long road ahead. And the road is not just the loss, that's kind of the easy part, it's the keeping it off, figuring out how to not have the switch flip back - and stay there.
I suspect figuring out why and what the switch is ( and I am sure it's different for everyone), is ultimately the key to being successful in the long haul.
Or... maybe it's figuring out how to disable the damn thing, no matter why/what it is.