Sunday, January 22, 2012
I know I keep saying this, but it's been a rough week. I lost a former friend and neighbor to kidney failure. He was really a remarkable person, a former Tuskegee Airman. He used to pick me and my sister up from school, take us out to breakfast, come over for backyard bbq's, etc. He was at my grandma's funeral a few weeks ago and I told him I was happy to see him because I knew that he was having some health problems himself. He said I shouldn't worry about him, because he was fine, "better than fine". My whole family will miss him, may he rest in peace.
On my diet....
If I could master breakfast, this whole eating healthy thing would be easy. I don't know what to eat for breakfast. I TRIED to make myself like eggs, I really did. I have eaten all manner of omelettes, scrambled eggs, eggs over easy, I even tried hard boiled eggs. I just don't like eggs. I would feel resentful after a few days of forcing myself to eat something I totally dislike, and go on a crazy binge. Now, I'm trying to avoid repeating that scenario and am looking for alternative healthy breakfast options. This week I managed to make some very healthy whole wheat waffles (made with apple sauce and flaxseed, very good for you!). I topped them with a blueberry sauce I made out of frozen blueberries and splenda. It was so yummy, the only problem is that it wouldn't be very practical to make every day for breakfast. I feel like I'm back to square 1. Is it acceptable just to eat honey bunches of oats or frosted mini wheats for breakfast? How about a piece of whole wheat toast with 1 serving of jam, a piece of fruit, and a cup of milk? I keep thinking that those breakfast options have too many carbs in them, even though I'm not specifically trying to follow a low carb diet.
I need to smooth out my eating, I had a few days last week that I only ate 900-1200 calories. I probably need 1600-1700 calories to feel full and to keep losing weight. I also had 1 day that I went over 2000 calores. I would prefer not to have high calorie days and low calorie days, but to maintain a steady number across the board.
I didn't make it to the gym as much as I had hoped (or planned) this week. I need to go to bed earlier to make those early work outs! Although, even when I do get to bed, I have been having a hard time sleeping. My mind races over all the details of everything that I need to be getting done. I just need to remember that once I do make it to the gym, I feel empowered by working out. It feels amazing to be drenched in sweat after a tough work out and to know that my body really is changing. I can squat lower, jump higher, breathe deeper, go harder. My goal for next week is to make all of my scheduled workouts.
Studying for the GMAT:
I really need to get back to it. I only did a couple hours last week. I hit a problem that I feel like I should have known the answer to, but didn't. I got frustrated and didn't study any more after that. Clearly, I need to go over that material for that problem again and move on. I am aiming to study 14 hours next week.