1st Month of 2012
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Well, the first month of 2012 is almost over. I have been trapped in my house for 8 days due to snow (no, they don't plow our roads here and it's a mess!). So I've had a lot of time for reflection. Also, because I've gone through all my food and I'm down to canned vegetables, I've realized that I really DO miss it when I don't eat well. I'm craving fresh salad, steamed veggies, some nice chicken breast, some tuna....maybe some avocado on whole wheat toast with tomato and fresh basil sprinkled with a teaspoon of olive oil... Anyway, I digress - I'm really going stir crazy! But it hasn't all been bad. This week has allowed me to break my habit of drinking 2 glasses (or more) of wine every night (because I don't have any!) and I've had to cut back on coffee to ration it out to last all week. Ok, one glass of wine and one cup of coffee a day are probably fine, but for the last few months I've been indulging quite a bit with those "pleasures." So this forced 8 day entrapment has allowed me to do a 'reset' back to zero.
I have fallen off the wagon with exercise, but I'm happy to say that I've gotten back to it since I've been trapped. It took a few days to get going, but I've done a little something for the last 4 days. I tried HIIT yesterday for the first time on my elliptical and discovered that I really like it! BUT I need to get a heart rate monitor to make sure I'm not going over my max heart rate. I realized that I think I was slacking on my elliptical and not working as hard as I should have.
Also, during this week I have come to the conclusion that I am responsible for my own emotional health and it doesn't do me any good to beat myself up for doing things wrong or to hate myself. Hating myself for being fat isn't going to help me solve the problem! I've decided to try and make myself understand that I really AM worth it. That underneath all of this fat is a loving, caring person who is deserving of all the good things life has to offer - even if I never lose the weight, I'm still that person and I need to treat myself that way.
So I suppose you can say that snow days might not be all bad after all if they help me get my head on straight! BUT, I am so ready to get the heck out of here!!!