Saturday, January 21, 2012
This past week has really been up and down for DH and myself. He has been having good and bad days and even ones that start out good may not end up like that. This Thursday was a really bad one pretty much all day long and evening just made it seem really bad as his blood pressure was up in dangerous territory and I had to give him an extra pill to get it down and then Friday morning it was too low.
My emotions are still running rampant but the good is starting to outweigh the bad. I still can lose it over the simplest things but hoping that this will continue to improve with time. I just don't understand myself - I cry over bananas! I know it sounds crazy, but I always used to look for small ones that were ripe for Dad and that is the first thing I think of when I buy them for us now. I am sure folks in Wal-Mart wonder what that silly woman is doing crying over by the bananas, but I really don't care.
A close friend went into the hospital on Tuesday with chest pain and had a heart cath on Wed evening and we went and sat with her husband while it was being done and I went to the hospital at 6:30 am Fri morning to sit with him while they did open heart surgery on her-she ended up having a triple bypass.
Another dear friend got the news that he has bladder cancer on Thursday (he and his wife kept Abbie for us while we went north for Dad's funeral). He is being sent to Tampa this coming Tuesday to see a specialist.
Maybe confronting all the health issues of those who are near and dear to me along with dealing with my own grief is not making any of this any easier and it is making me think long and hard about all of our mortality-life is fragile and we need to treat it as such.
Take care of yourseves dear friends.