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Live now! Letting go of clothes, making some $$

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Sometimes I'm so hard on myself! For example, over the last few months, as I've been cleaning my closet of all of my "too-big" clothes, I was undoubtedly proud of myself (to see how much smaller I've gotten). But tempering the joy was the shame that I had let myself slide so far, and wasted so much money on larger-sized wardrobes instead of tackling the problem earlier and halting my weight gain years ago! When I started grad school four years ago, I was a size 14. When I started sliding back into size 16s, why didn't I get myself back on track then? Why'd I let myself buy bigger clothes as I piled weight on, slowly creeping past 170 pounds, 180 pounds, 190 pounds? Why did I have to let myself hit 200 pounds before I was shocked into taking action?

Maybe it was the stress of school, and moving to a new state, and then moving in with my sister's family. Maybe it was boredom or loneliness, related to my inherent shyness and the emptiness I felt as a single girl with no dating prospects and not enough self-esteem to put myself out there. Maybe it was depression (which I think I'm prone to, in cycles), or maybe it was related to poor thyroid function (I have Hashimotos), or a combination of these things.

Regardless of any excuses, a big part of my Sparkjourney has been forgiving myself for how I got here, accepting where I am, and just doing my best to move forward.

It's an attitude that has been working pretty well for me, along with the phrase "Live now!" which encompasses both taking charge of my life in the present moment, and also refusing to live in the past or be too regretful over "what ifs". I'll admit, though, that I couldn't help feeling twinges of regret whenever I saw those big bags of too-big clothes, waiting for me to take them to the thrift store for donation. Luckily, inspiration struck, and I listed them on craigslist. I'm happy to report that I've made $150 so far! ($60 for my size 18+ dress pants, $70 for my plus-size tops and some casual pants, and $20 for my size 18 jeans). Since I do almost all of my shopping at thrift stores, I think I've actually made back a good portion of what I spent! Woo-hoo! Also, the success of my clothing sales prompted me to list a couple textbooks (made $115), plus $15 on an old printer, and $15 on an old light fixture!

Of course, this $295 doesn't even cover how much I've spent on rewards for myself on this journey (e-harmony subscription, $99 laser hair removal, $85 hair cut and color with a bottle of curl-styling product, $35 for two pairs of running shoes on Black Friday), but every bit helps! And it's de-cluttering my house some, while I'm at it!
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    Good for you. I have given away hundreds and hundreds of dollars worth of clothes. I should have thought to sell them but I didin't really think of it and I hate dealing with Craig's list because you have to deal with people calling you and meeting you to buy something. I was just happy to get rid of the bigger clothes. I hope you and Chris are dowing well. I start C25K week 3 on Monday. Hope my body is ready for going from a 90 second run to a 3 minute run. How are things with Chris going. I got a huge date tomorrow. This guy is awesome. Gorgeous, funny, single Dad. We have talked on the phone over 13 hours this week so I am more than ready to finally meet him. I really really really want it to go well. And then of course Cheeky just had her date though I am waiting on deets. How awesome would it be if we all 3 had men in our lives? 3 women who run and have men. We can be the three musketeerettes. :0)
    2089 days ago
  • KARMA70
    Live Now! Great motto!

    200 pounds was always my breaking point, I would get up there then I would lose 20 or 30 pounds then start to creep back up again. I was worried because with moving, misc stress and the holidays I gained 5+ pounds and had been beating myself up about it. But like you I have learned that you need to forgive yourself and move on. I also learned that I actually like exercise and it helps to quell the depression that I'm prone to as well. I'm just having a little trouble now leaving the treats that became constant over the holidays... but that's subsiding as well so I'm on the right track :)

    That is awesome that you're making some money on your stuff! I considered taking mine to a consignment but was busy moving and it seemed like way too much trouble. But you've inspired me, I'm going to try that with the latest batch of clothes I have!
    2090 days ago
  • CHEEKY1000
    I'm in awe! Why didn't I think of that? Making money to declutter! Sheesh! You're sheer brilliance!

    I look at some of the clothes I no longer fit in (because they're too big), and I too wonder what the freak was I thinking? Unfortunately, I think it took hitting rock bottom (being overweight) to inspire me to get myself out of the funk and realize that time is wasting away. I was able to function quite well with my blinders as my weight kept creeping up...until it was no longer creeping but jiggling all over the place.

    You have made tremendous strides and now that you're aware of how you function...you can stop yourself from repeating the cycle. Woohoo!!

    2091 days ago
  • 4CYNDI
    That's quite an accomplishment! Way to go!

    I know the feeling of shame about letting yourself creep up like that and trying to figure out why. It's all just a learning experience. Love the way you're turning letting go of things into profit and motivation.
    2094 days ago
    Stupid interwebz...did not mean to double-post!
    2095 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/21/2012 8:00:18 PM
    Decluttering, making money, and forgiving yourself-fantastic things, all! Do NOT dwell on the past (says the woman who has to constantly remind herself to live in the present, and forget what has gone before), there is nothing you can do to change it. You have taken control NOW, and are making your life better. You are moving forward, so don't waste time looking back!
    2095 days ago
  • FITAT50
    Sometimes we can get so caught up in what if's we forget to enjoy today. I'm glad you're able to live for today.

    Kudos for making money on those to big clothes!
    2095 days ago
  • DEE797
    Congrats on your success! Also WTG on selling your things, good way to make some cash.
    2095 days ago
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