I like Jillian Michaels. I like her workouts. I like her attitude. I like her straight forward way of communicating. I don't agree with everything she says, but I like to hear her say it anyway.

One of the things she says (and I'm paraphrasing here) is that you can handle any "how" if you know "why". If you know why you want to do something, you're able to handle any how that comes at you.

Which brings up the question, why do I want to lose weight and then maintain? I really need to figure this out. I've been maintaining between six and eight pounds above my goal weight. For about six months now. I have been doing great with exercise. However, my eating has been erratic at best. I can eat really well for a day or two and then I eat way too much the next day or two or six. Or...I eat well all day and then go nuts at or after dinner.

I'm not overrating because I'm hungry. I'm eating fruits and veggies. I'm getting lots of water and nutrients. I'm just eating too much.

If I knew why I wanted to lose the last few pounds, why I wanted to be healthy, why I want to eat well and exercise, I could handle the how. I would be able to avoid the afternoon runs for cookies. I could reduce the size of the portions I consume. I could reach my goal weight (and probably not care about the number on the scale!) and stay there.

So...what is my why? I need to figure that out...