Thursday, January 19, 2012
Don't you hate it when you're all ready to go and ready to get back on track and then SHARK WEEK comes? Lol...
But it's not like the other times, it starts off heavy, you're moody within minutes and you can't stop it, you crave ColdStone Birthday Cake Remix for the first time in a year, and everything went down the drain? Yeah, that's me...
I was so gung-ho about working out and then Mother Nature hits, a few days earlier than expected. (by a few, I mean a week!) I got mad for no reason and I knew it was for no reason and it was probably due to my period, but it was such a "serious" issue that I couldn't fully blame it on my period, I assumed it had to be something important. I was the irrational PMS lady that everyone warns you about, it only lasted about an hour... But still. The boyfriend is so amazing and I truthfully don't like chocolate but when it's here, I NEED it lol... So he brought me home a Milky Way. So between us moving into our new apartment almost a week ago and Aunt Flo, this week has just been horrible. My pants are fitting tighter and although I know it's because of my period (and I refuse to weigh in on period weeks) and I'm bloated, I have convinced myself that I've gained 8lbs lol. I'm not stressing this, because I know it's just Shark Week's fault and that if for whatever reason I did gain 8lbs, with my motivation to want to go to the gym finally (and not just eat right) that I'll lose that weight in a snap (insert a overdramatic snap here) So I'm not stressing it, I just wish I could wave a magic wand and lose the weight faster sometimes, or see the difference.
Speaking on being annoyed and wanting to lose weight, I have something that has been bothering me for around two solid weeks!
I went to a friends house because he was having a little get together, there was only a few of us there and we all hang out and have a really good time and start playing this game:
Read a card (example) "The person most likely to go to McDonalds and order a Veggie Burger"
Each person has a number, there was 8 of us there. We all had to put the person/number that went best with that statement. Whoever guessed within the majority got to move up one step.
My boyfriend and I picked myself because I truthfully seldom eat fast food (only time I do is when I am shwasted at 3am) and everyone else there eats fast food. Everyone picked this one girl because she is a twig. She looked at my boyfriend and I and saw we were the only two that didn't pick her, she looked at us and asked "why not" because she's trying to lose 10 more pounds and that she's always eating salads... He just politely answered, "Michelle never eats fast food anymore so she would be the most likely to order a Veggie Burger" ...meanwhile she goes to McDonalds at least 3 times a week and orders double cheese burgers and is always eating KFC. I know that I shouldn't have that bother me but it does. I understand that I am 30ish pounds overweight and that she is not, but don't assume that I eat fast food all the time because I'm bigger, I've already lost 25lbs and have cut all that trash out of my diet...
I know that's something frivolous and that no one even remembers that specific card or interaction because it wasn't a big deal to anyone, but it was to me. This weight loss journey (although a lot of people from back home have no idea) has almost, defined me. It's changed my life completely. So I guess, reading over what I wrote now, I felt as though everything I done had almost been discredited and put me down. Soon it'll happen. The day that it does, I'll make sure that blog is in ALL caps so you can all tell my excitement!! :)
I'm ready for Aunt Flo to leave, or at least lighten up, and get on the grind. #TeamBikini is in full effect!
It feels good to get everything off my chest, I forgot how great it is to blog and how great it is to receive comments.
I feel so calm and relax now. Ahh, SP, I love you :) lol