Advertisement -- Learn more about ads on this site.

    RAGAZZA_   3,805
2,500-3,999 SparkPoints
Letting out my frustration!

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Don't you hate it when you're all ready to go and ready to get back on track and then SHARK WEEK comes? Lol...
But it's not like the other times, it starts off heavy, you're moody within minutes and you can't stop it, you crave ColdStone Birthday Cake Remix for the first time in a year, and everything went down the drain? Yeah, that's me...

I was so gung-ho about working out and then Mother Nature hits, a few days earlier than expected. (by a few, I mean a week!) I got mad for no reason and I knew it was for no reason and it was probably due to my period, but it was such a "serious" issue that I couldn't fully blame it on my period, I assumed it had to be something important. I was the irrational PMS lady that everyone warns you about, it only lasted about an hour... But still. The boyfriend is so amazing and I truthfully don't like chocolate but when it's here, I NEED it lol... So he brought me home a Milky Way. So between us moving into our new apartment almost a week ago and Aunt Flo, this week has just been horrible. My pants are fitting tighter and although I know it's because of my period (and I refuse to weigh in on period weeks) and I'm bloated, I have convinced myself that I've gained 8lbs lol. I'm not stressing this, because I know it's just Shark Week's fault and that if for whatever reason I did gain 8lbs, with my motivation to want to go to the gym finally (and not just eat right) that I'll lose that weight in a snap (insert a overdramatic snap here) So I'm not stressing it, I just wish I could wave a magic wand and lose the weight faster sometimes, or see the difference.

Speaking on being annoyed and wanting to lose weight, I have something that has been bothering me for around two solid weeks!

I went to a friends house because he was having a little get together, there was only a few of us there and we all hang out and have a really good time and start playing this game:
Read a card (example) "The person most likely to go to McDonalds and order a Veggie Burger"
Each person has a number, there was 8 of us there. We all had to put the person/number that went best with that statement. Whoever guessed within the majority got to move up one step.

My boyfriend and I picked myself because I truthfully seldom eat fast food (only time I do is when I am shwasted at 3am) and everyone else there eats fast food. Everyone picked this one girl because she is a twig. She looked at my boyfriend and I and saw we were the only two that didn't pick her, she looked at us and asked "why not" because she's trying to lose 10 more pounds and that she's always eating salads... He just politely answered, "Michelle never eats fast food anymore so she would be the most likely to order a Veggie Burger" ...meanwhile she goes to McDonalds at least 3 times a week and orders double cheese burgers and is always eating KFC. I know that I shouldn't have that bother me but it does. I understand that I am 30ish pounds overweight and that she is not, but don't assume that I eat fast food all the time because I'm bigger, I've already lost 25lbs and have cut all that trash out of my diet...

I know that's something frivolous and that no one even remembers that specific card or interaction because it wasn't a big deal to anyone, but it was to me. This weight loss journey (although a lot of people from back home have no idea) has almost, defined me. It's changed my life completely. So I guess, reading over what I wrote now, I felt as though everything I done had almost been discredited and put me down. Soon it'll happen. The day that it does, I'll make sure that blog is in ALL caps so you can all tell my excitement!! :)

I'm ready for Aunt Flo to leave, or at least lighten up, and get on the grind. #TeamBikini is in full effect!
It feels good to get everything off my chest, I forgot how great it is to blog and how great it is to receive comments.
I feel so calm and relax now. Ahh, SP, I love you :) lol
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

WHQPHQ 1/20/2012 4:12PM

    I know how you feel, I get hormonal and mental when I'm PMS-ing (although I always deny it's PMS, can't a girl just be hysterical?). I try and go to the gym when I'm on my period but the pain is unbearable, jog jog cramp cramp jog jog. I'm too busy loading up on painkillers, thank you mefanamic acid!

I'd ignore their comments (easier said than done), there is a toxic girl at work who I try and avoid interactions with as she manages to put you down every time you speak to her: "oh I like your dress but it's a bit short" (accompanied with disgusted look at my legs. Urgh!


Report Inappropriate Comment
SHAYLA24S 1/20/2012 3:40PM

    This week sounds exactly like mine!! and hahaha...I've never heard anyone call it shark week but I love that name!! But yes, I have been wearing stretchy pants all week and when my trainer suggested we hit the scale this week I was like "NO! I'm retaining water this week!" and he just laughed.

I know how you feel about "twiggy" and the MCD question. Anytime I say that I work out or rarely eat fast food, I feel like people look at me as if to say "yeah right". I'm just waiting for the day when someone calls me "petite" or thinks that I'm naturally thin. It will happen for us. I know it!!

Have a good weekend!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
POOKASLUAGH 1/20/2012 7:40AM

    I can relate. I don't know why, but PMS came TWO WEEKS EARLY this month, with the hunger starting early last week and the crankiness and bloating all this week, and yet I still havent' started official TOM yet. Now I'm late. I'm angry and cranky and grouchy and not losing weight. Sick of this. So yeah. And that card thing? That would have ticked me off too.

Report Inappropriate Comment
HDHAWK 1/20/2012 6:34AM

    Shark week, that's great! You'll show your friends by the changes you're making and the example you're setting that you are getting healthy. Don't let it bug you. They may not want you to change the way things have always been.

Report Inappropriate Comment
LISSASLOSINIT 1/20/2012 5:41AM

    sounds like you were playing Apples to Apples.... right? and I LOVE that you call the week you have your period "Shark Week"- hilarious. I think all women understand your frustration and mood swings, don't sweat it. You'll bounce back if you haven't already! :)

Report Inappropriate Comment
ROOSTER72 1/20/2012 3:24AM

    Keep up the good habits, and people will start to notice gradually.
Skinny does not = healthy.

Report Inappropriate Comment
1HAPPYWOMAN 1/20/2012 12:38AM

    Yeah, that would totally bug me too! I hope you have a better week!

Report Inappropriate Comment

    Never heard of it referred to as 'shark week' before! hahaha

Some people, no matter how slim, are just not healthy. Hats off to you going about it the right way.

Have a great day!

Report Inappropriate Comment
EVERSTEPH 1/20/2012 12:12AM

    Never heard of the SHARK WEEK reference until now. HA! Lots of innuendo with that one!

I know what you mean about the party situation w/ the super skinny girl's comment. Ragazza, you just gotta blow it off and certainly stop referring to yourself as fat. Please! She was rude for insinuating whatever she was. We all know those naturally skinny girls (can I say bitches?) don't ALL eat like rabbits. Some eat healthily, some eat horribly, and some have eating disorders.

I know & I hope you know that "being skinny" doesn't define who you are or necessarily make you healthy. It sounds like you've worked really hard to lose 25 pounds and made some great changes in your life!!

I feel like I'm talking to my younger sister or a younger version of myself right now ... but... let's aspire to be healthy; not skinny, OK?

As we get healthier, muscles will be defined & excess fat will be shed. Fast food will be distant memory. Confidence will abound & you'll be sexier... not just skinnier! ;-)


Report Inappropriate Comment

Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

Log in to post a comment.