Thursday, January 19, 2012
So sometimes I'm what you would call a "pushover." I realize that I am a 31 year old with no kids and a very understanding husband. If someone needs me to sub for a yoga class, I do it. No real thoughts, just "ok."
Normally this is not a big deal. I'm a people pleaser and I don't want anyone to have to miss any family obligations. However, I think I need to begin to learn to say no (sometimes, LOL).
I am currently teaching 3-4 yoga classes a week. It's a lot on top of a full time job and trying to maintain my running fitness while ssssllllooowwwwlllyyy building my bike fitness. So when the gym that I teach at decided that they were going to cut my Thursday night class so they could add a spinning class, I was actually relieved. Awesome, now I have an extra day to work on the bike.
While at yoga last night, I mentioned to the owner that I was no longer teaching up at the gym on Thursday nights. She mentioned that the current Thursday night instructor at the studio (who is pregnant with twins) is having a hard time with the class and would probably like to give the class to me. My first instinct is to take the class. I feel badly since the other instructor is pregnant and I know the owner has a lot on her plate as well. I want to be able to help out. BUT...
I get home and tell my husband. He asks what about spinning. Yes, what about spinning? I REALLY want to take that class. I NEED to take that class. Mentally, I cannot handle any more teaching. The guilt really gets to me though. I have this really deep NEED to help when I know I can.
After thinking it over, I believe I have come up with a better solution which I will discuss with the other instructors at our meeting on Sunday. I will be taking the spinning class. I will do this for my own mental (and physical) health. I believe the new solution will help assuage some of the guilt, but I know some will remain. It's just one more thing to work on...