Thursday, January 19, 2012
Have you ever been just going along in your day when all of a sudden you realize that you're really there?
It's hard to explain, but sometimes I will just be involved in some simple task or whatever and all of a sudden become acutely aware that I'm actually doing it.
Sometimes, when it happens I think to myself "Wow, who knew I'd ever be here doing this?" Since my divorce and all that that encompassed these little spells have fallen upon me quite often. I liken it to when people talk about paralell universes or an out-of-body experience, only they're way less exciting than all that.
What do I hope to gain by talking about it? I have no flippin idea, but I feel compelled to tell you that I believe it means something... that there's a huge message to be decoded and shared from those jolted-to-awareness moments.
If I were to guess I'd say the messages have everything to do with finding peace in one's self, perhaps a gentle reminder to just be satisfied and grateful for the opportunity to take in a breath and contemplate the hugeness of it all. To accept that we cannot predict the future, nor can we change the past... That all we really have is the moment we're living in and that in it is contained all of life's elements and energy to be used wisely or tossed away carelessly by choice.
We are so special, the mere fact that we can, for the most part, choose to take life a minute at a time, think about where we'd like to be in say 10, 20, or a bazillion of them is such a precious gift, and it is my hope that each of us will do whatever it takes to not allow even one more to be stolen, contaminated by negativity, or worst of all ignored or treated as if it doesn't have the power to change our lives completely.