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Locked in a Dark Room !!!

Thursday, January 19, 2012

I feel Like I was held PRISONER at the HOSPITAL following the surgery for the hysterectomy. They locked me in a room. The door was not officially locked, but I had no way to open it due to being weak from the blood loss, surgery, complicated by Multiple sclerosis, and being tied down by the foley, leg massagers, and IV.

I had no call light. I could not reach the light cord. They left me DELIBERATELY IN THE DARK ROOM BECAUSE I WAS CRYING IN PAIN. They wouldn't treat the pain either. I could feel all the cuts made to take out my uterus. I could feel every incision. Honestly, it feels like your guts are ripped out. I couldn't help but to cry. That made me a bad patient. It felt like they deliberately placed things so I could not get the help I needed.

I was so helplessly weak like a babY SINCE I JUST HAD MAJOR SURGERY. If I moved I risked pulling out the folley which I could not reach that hung on the side of the bed. Across the other side was the IV. My legs where held down by the massaging thingies. I couldn't sit up on my own due to all the pain that ripped across my body with any movement. It hurt constantly even laying still. Everything was placed so it was impossible for me to move. Both arms had IV's in them, but only one was hooked up. So the other arm hurt to move do to the large bore IV. I WAS TRAPPED !!!

ANY Movement caused pain or lack of it. They put me on my side propped up with pillows which increased the pain until eventually I blacked out. I could not reach the phone to call home. I DESPERATELY wanted my husband !!!

I couldn't call anyone due to them not placing things where I needed them. The water was out of reach. I was so thirsty. I was SCARED laying in the dark, feeling the unrelenting pain, crying out for help. They locked me in to silence me. It was so scary dark. I heard the nurses talking to close the door because I couldn't stop crying. To turn off the lights. They said I would eventually fall asleep.

Now I can't sleep at night, afraid of the dark. When I close my eyes all I see is the images of what they did to me. I feel tortured, scared even at home. The horrible memories don't go away. I get panicky, it feels like the dark is closing in on me.

Why would the hospital do this to me. Why?

I wasn't afraid of the dark until the hospitalization. They did it to me. Now I can't sleep until exhaustion hits. Not a regular I have been up all day, but I have been up at least 24 hours. I feels so tortured mentally from them.

How is it the hospital can treat people like this in this day and age?

Why are hospitals so bad? I pray that I never have to go back unless I am dead. I am so totally scared of hospitals now and the power they have over the patient. Violating there rights.
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

JIBBIE49 1/30/2012 10:56AM

    Most people when so ill have family or friends staying with them over night, so they have someone there to deal with the staff. Amazing that you were completely alone. When I had my hysterectomy, my husband or neighbor was there with me once I got out of the recovery room and went to my room. Glad ur doing better.

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BLUEBIRDSFLY 1/23/2012 6:54PM

    Right now I think you should concentrate your energy on centering yourself as you have been through a horrific ordeal and you definately need time to release your anger and fear.
And I would strongly suggest you do so by writing down everything that happened to you as soon as possible as it is all still very fresh in your mind. You can consider legal recourse as you see fit but writing it all out will both serve to release emotions as well as provide a detailed document for later use if necessary.
I hope the pain from you hysterectomy is beginning to subside and that you are able to begin to find peace.
I am so very sorry that this has happened to you.


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MOMMA_BEAR_69 1/21/2012 6:22PM

    Praying for you that you heal completely and rapidly...physically as well as emotionally. If I can help in any way, please let me know. In the meantime, I will continue to pray for you...

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WATREKKIE 1/20/2012 1:37PM

    sending emoticon emoticon emoticon and emoticon emoticon emoticon .

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K1TT3N 1/20/2012 8:31AM

    I agree with everyone else .. the is no reason for that kind of treatment.. I would sue. I hope you feel better and your fears go away

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ROCHELLE62 1/20/2012 12:26AM

    I have had experiences miserable enough that I try very hard to avoid doctors and while I went to one this week, it is literally the first attempt at an exam in 15 yrs--I regained consciousness during a surgery, i have been belittled and ridiculed. I know the insomnia post surgery due to feeling so traumatized. I hate doctors, I feel dehumanized, and it makes me crazy. That being said, having them lock you in a dark room was WRONG and you have every right to be angry and to seek any recourse you have, but please, don't lock yourself in a dark place over it. Find ways to put yourself in kind calming places while you recover. Eat well, find helpful sleep rituals, pamper yourself.

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SVELTEWARRIOR 1/20/2012 12:20AM

    I am praying for to heal physically, emotionally and mentally.

If I were you I would definately talk to a malpractice attorney

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NELLIEC 1/20/2012 12:03AM

    Yes, get a lawyer to sue them for malpractice.

I have been praying for your life! I am glad you survived, but not glad it was such a traumatic experience!

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PONYFARMER 1/19/2012 11:55PM

    I have to agree with you to a point. I have had both good and bad treatment in a hospital.

The bad treatment: I went to the ER because I was very ill after surgery for rotator cuff. I picked up C-Diff, had not eaten for a week and a half, had lost 18 pounds and this women was just so rude to me, completely non-caring. Then when she took me back in the wheelchair. It had this quick release that stops the chair immediately, she slammed it off throwing me almost out of the chair. Then turned and walked away. I talked to the patient advocate and nothing was done. I will never see that nurse again, because I will walk out before I go into a room with her again.

On the other hand, I have had some really great experiences and was well taken care of which leads me to believe that it is totally a crap shoot and depends on who you get as your care giver.

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ROSALIEESTHER 1/19/2012 11:45PM

    Please consult a malpractice attorney. They only get paid of they won or they get you a settlement.

After a hospital murdered my beloved mother two years ago I stopped taking care of myself, became obese, and basically gave up on life.

Recently, I received a treatment called EMDR. It is used for post traumatic stress disorder. I highly recommend it over any other therapy.

Your trust has been broken. You are worth getting help for.

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MISSLISA1973 1/19/2012 11:34PM

    I'm sorry for all you have gone through. It sounds like you are home, which I am so glad to hear. 10TIMES6 is right... you definitely need to talk to a professional. And report the hospital. I hope you are feeling better soon!

emoticon Lisa

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 1/19/2012 11:15PM

    The results of my treatment were not as from the result of the medication, rather than patient abuse. I know it is not legal to lock a patient in a room without there permission. Counseling, well they run in the same lot as doctors and are worthless in my area. Talking to someone won't change what happened. (they were worthless for my children after my divorce) I don't believe in them after that experience.

The only thing that will get me through is my strength, and my belief in God providing justice for the wrongs. Now if there was a patient advocate, that would help. As to talking to administration, doctors, etc over the treatment - well that is worthless as they side up in support of the profession. I don't want to speak to them as I am still considering what action to take next, if I should pursue a suit.

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MEEBELO 1/19/2012 10:01PM

    What an ordeal to go through! Like many others have said, please find someone to hold the hospital accountable for what you were put through so that no one else should experience the same thing. I hope you get well soon. emoticon

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    I've worked at several hospitals and none were like this. I suggest that you talk to your physician about this and the patient advocate. Most hospitals are required to have then now. Maybe you can get some answers and some help.

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SAMI199 1/19/2012 7:01PM

    emoticon I'm praying for you.

Comment edited on: 1/19/2012 7:06:50 PM

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SHANTI66 1/19/2012 5:58PM

    Sounds hoRRibe, like you. Have PTSD. I pray you feel safe ANd. Better soon.

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MIRAGE727 1/19/2012 2:05PM

    You are in my prayers for healing. I wish you inner peace.

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GODDESSHIPS 1/19/2012 12:51PM

    I don't mean to sound harsh, bu if it was that bad then you should be using your energy to contact the hospital administration or a lawyer, not blogging about it. I hope you are able to resolve whatever issues you experienced. Record your experience in a matter of fact way, leave out any emotions that could be construed as you being dramatic. I've only been to one of our local hospitals and had nothing good things to say about my labor and delivery experiences, but with my daughter's ER visit it was bad. I did speak up. You have to speak up, or they (the administration and head nurses) won't know and nothing can be done about it.

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ALISHAB3 1/19/2012 11:34AM

    The hospital should have an ombudsman who can help remedy the situation, or a patient advocate. I am so sorry that happened to you. It sounds like the anesthesia did not work. I pray that you never have to go back again,


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CITYGIRL27 1/19/2012 11:22AM

    Please talk to a professional. I'm keeping you in my thoughts.

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 1/19/2012 9:49AM

    I am so sorry about your experience. The hospitals in our area are more like businesses and they fight for your business. emoticon

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MELLY3183 1/19/2012 9:44AM

    so sorry to hear you were treated like this. someone needs to know about the actions of the staff. I agree with the counseling comments, something this tragic is going to leave a huge scar.

I hope you recover quickly from your surgery and are able to sleep again.


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JDUFORD 1/19/2012 9:41AM

    emoticon Unfortunately, you should talk to someone about your experience. You are correct that they did not treat you professionally. It could have been inexperience or lack of caring, but either way it was a violation against your rights. Please contact a lawyer and discuss your options so that another patient does not go through what you endured and are still enduring.

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RAINTHIEF 1/19/2012 9:25AM

    I agree with everyone. You may wish to talk with a professional about what happened and they can help you with your sleep and getting past this. I would also file a complaint to the hospital, better business bureau, and shoot - lawyer couldn't hurt either. How they treated you is appalling, and I'm so sorry that you had to go through that, my SP buddy. Hang in there.

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TOPAZROSE 1/19/2012 9:13AM

    I was deeply saddened to read about your experience in hospital. In Australia we have rights and there are procedures in place in the event that treatment has been inappropriate. Do you have something similar?
I became scared of the dark due to a different but still traumatic event. It took some weeks to be able to sleep in the dark. First I slept with the light on and door open. Gradually once I felt comfortable with this I switched the bedroom light off and had a light on in the passage. I continued this process until the light was further away and finally I didn't need it. Because I became ridden with anxiety at night and times during the day which would leave me hyperventilating I learned diaphragmatic breathing. This helped me calm down and breath properly. It made me feel better.
I hope this helps. Hugs and more hugs. You will get better in time.

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-SONIA- 1/19/2012 8:45AM

    I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I had a similar traumatic experience in a hospital when I was pregnant. My son and I almost didn't make it. But luckily my husband was there during the day to help me -- while the nurses refused -- but I was on my own at night :(

I'm sending my prayers that you make it through all of this -- physically and emotionally. I hope blogging on Spark helps. The support and friendly advice will hopefully make a tiny bit of difference -- but only time will truly heal. Hang in there! Keep on Sparking and let us know how you're doing.

I found your blog through a random search, but I'll subscribe so that I can check in on you, too.


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MRSSCHENCK 1/19/2012 5:11AM

    Get some counseling to help with the post traumatic stress. Don't let what they did to you in the hospital take over your life.

I too had a bad experience at a hospital so I know exactly what you're going through.

Get better soon. emoticon emoticon

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SUSIEPH1 1/19/2012 4:21AM

    I so agree with Karen!!
I think you are still suffering shock and maybe post traumatic stress ... It often happens with these sorts of procedures ..
I also think it is quite possible you are morphine intolerance and that is why you felt so much pain!.
You need to talk to the Specialist,perhaps the Hospital administration, the social worker attached to the Hospital and later when you have some answers to your solicitor..But for now you need pain relief.Try to tell your Doctor what you felt and how you still feel. Hugs

Comment edited on: 1/19/2012 4:22:26 AM

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EVER-HOPEFUL 1/19/2012 3:24AM

    emoticon sounds like you could do with some professional help to deal with your traumatic experiance you have had in the that is what it seems to me ,that you have gone through a trama and still in schock,not just by how you feel you have been treated in hospital but also by the operation itself .i remeber when my sister had her hystorectomy that she felt barren and empty inside and that some how she felt nolonger a full women etc.theese feelings also have to be dealt with.wished i could do more than send my hugs and empathy your way but i canīt.i can advise you however to seek professional councilling to come to terms with all that has passieert and also maybe legal help to deal with the hospital.feeling that you are doing something about how they treated you might make you feel better and also help from letting the same thing happen to some one help.try also to concentrate on building up your strength and getting better. emoticon

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    I'm so sorry! That's horrible!

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