Diiiiiiiiiisgusting! The lies stop now!
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Dear self.... you suck.... you're lying to yourself again! Stop! You are allowed to stumble and fall on your arse; you are NOT allowed to lie to yourself about it! The average effective range of an excuse is 0 (zero, nada, nil, nunca, null, nyet) meters! So, stop making them!
Yes. I caught myself lying to my favorite gullible person... myself. How did I commit this heinous offence? I got off work and stopped at the 7-11 to grab some coffee before visiting my wife at the used book store where she works. Yes... as she worked late, I suspected we would be having fast food for supper, but... I've figured out how to mitigate some of that damage by choosing carefully what I order. (Sorry... the fries are RIGHT out!) That being said, while getting my coffee, I was feeling very clearly the monkey-bites of hunger.... and there sat one of my arch-nemeses.... taunting me with it's chocolately peanut butter goodness: The Little Debbie Nutty Bar.
I should have said no; I didn't. I craved the sweet chocolate and peanut butter combination. And then the lies began.... "You don't hafta log it on your food journal. Nobody will know."
STOP LYING TO YER SILLY SELF!
So this morning, after breakfasting on a healthy serving of humble crow pie along with my cheep and sleasy Jimmy Dean's sausage snacker, I dutifully logged my egregious failure of better judgement for myself and all to see.
The moral of this story is simple. The food journal works. It wakes you up to what you shove in your pie-hole. All ya gotta do, is be truthful to yourself when you do it. Bottom line for me? If I'm ashamed to put it on my food journal, mebbe, juuuuust mebbe, I aught not to shove the dang thing twixt my lips, huh?
Will I have bad days? Yes. The trick is to be very aware of what you eat, when you eat it, and stop lying to yourself that it doesn't count or doesn't matter. I'm not hurting anybody else by not facing the truth or trying to mitigate the events with excuses.
Gotfrid? Epic fail. Try again. :-/
Member Comments About This Blog Post
My inner goober stuck his tongue out at me and flipped me off! I mean... the NERVE of that.... that..... that.... punk! So.... yesterday, I signed myself up for the Army Move Program... Much like an in person version of Spark People, only I _hafta_ show up. *ebil chuckle*
2217 days ago
So, how's it going? *grin* Would love to hear what's going on since the stern talking to you gave your inner goober.
2218 days ago
Good for you for 'fessing up to yourself. You'll do better next time.
I'm finding it helps to have a plan (or at least some personal rules, well guidelines, that I don't really want to break.)
Best of luck to you!
2225 days ago
If it's the Dojo of the Empty Promises for Empty Calories, yes I absolutely do
Strange, when it's for someone else, I'll do whatever I can to get it done. When it's for me, well, what do I care if I cheat myself, right? Right?
2226 days ago
I see your inner voice attempts the same mental-judo moves as mine does. (re: "You can do an extra 10 minutes or so on the cardio to make up for it. No prob!) Does yer inner goober attend the same dojo as mine? *snort chuckle*
2226 days ago
Right on. Actually, I'm struggling with this myself as I recommit to the program. ("Hey, K, you can totally have a coke. No one will know. Besides, you can just exercise more tomorrow to make up for it, right? No big.")
Especially when I, say, stop at the Kum'n'Go on my way to meet Vincent for fighter practice. Same situation you were in. Lots of tasty looking treats.. all alone... no one will know....
Except, of course, that I either:
1)Don't exercise the next day, making excuses about being too tired when it's just lazy.
2)Use that excuse at so many points in a week that I'd have to exercise 24/7 to make it work out.
The great thing is, though, that it's easy to pick yourself up again. Last time (and I need to start it again) I developed the habit of looking at the nutrition label for every thing I ate - or (especially) wanted to eat that wasn't in my food journal. Then I did the mental math of how much walking I'd have to do to erase it. Usually stopped the cravings.
Also, if you haven't, try planning out your food journal the day before or that morning. It's become part of my ritual. Go downstairs for my high fiber maple&brown sugar oatmeal and work on my food for the day. Then I know if I've got room to splurge on something pointless but tasty (or can make room if I REALLY want it) and then glory in that little treat I get. Sometimes it's as simple as a crunchy "fried" banana (dry fried with a little calorieless butter flavored pam spray.) If I look forward to it, I don't get quite as waylaid by other temptations.
Or, if at any time you need an instant reminder not to do it, send me a text and I'll talk you out of it. ;0) We all need a willpower hand sometimes.
2226 days ago
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