Wednesday, January 18, 2012
I am so nervous--heart beating fast, squirrelly tummy, etc., because I just signed up for the online Made to Crave Bible study. I know God has been leading me in this direction, but I haven't been obedient yet. Some ladies in my church have recently completed the study and begun an exercise program, which really is turning into a ministry, and I really want to be a part of whatever God is doing in my church. I have not been obedient because I really don't want to change. I want my circumstances to change instead, and I think by this point I should admit that God's answer to that request is, "not right now." He's telling me what I tell my kids, "You mind me first". So, here I go. I may not do all the stuff on SparkPeople right at the beginning because I'm focusing on the Bible study. I'm a few days behind (they started on Sunday), so I have some catching up to do. I'm hoping the nervousness I feel will remind me to pray and to rely on God. I'm usually very good at starting programs all gung-ho and then wimping out, so I'm going to pray every day for God to be here beside me and to make this process glorifying to Him.