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ALL I can do is cry....

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

My beloved sister passed away Dec 13th, after a long struggle with recovery from a severe brain injury near her brain stem. She aspirated on vomit, was septic, and ventilator dependent after a 5 day emergecy ordeal in the hospital beginning Dec 8th. She wasn't really responding off of anesthesia, and it was agonizingly apparent her brain function had detoriated..In Aug, she confirmed to all cognitively that is she were to get sick she did not want to be on a ventilator or life support. We tried a 5 day aggresive approach to get her on the mend...But her wishes were to be honored.




I just got out of the hospital myself last weekend after a weeks stay from Exacerbation of my copd/asthma, and the steroid medications had my blood sugars in the 500's....

Yes I have put on more wt, but the battle I fought for my sister was harder more emotional and more brutal than any excersize program....So as my daughter reminded me last night, "mother", you fought for Angie with everything you had, your mental and spiritual strength is stronger than you had thought or ever thought"......so thinking theses things over, I must battle and love myself as I did for my sister. WHo god bless her heart had not had a bite if real food in 17 months, due to her inability to swallow...so I guess I did the swallowing for her...
For you that know me, god bless you all for still sticking around. As I tried to write AImee, I was seriously considering joining wt watchers, to get me out of the house....etc, and yet after doing some research on them, and their money end of things, I found more mentions of Spark People on some of these other websites, reminding me of the friends and motivation that lies right here. ANd it is free to boot! So hellow 2012...time to Sparkle again....
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JB122383 1/22/2012 2:53PM

    I am so very sorry for you loss of your sister. I will pray will give you comfort and peace for you and your family.

I hope you don't mind, but I've made you a SP friend of mine. There are just several things you talk about that reminds me of myself.

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GEEMAWEST 1/19/2012 9:34PM

    Oh Melody, I am so sorry for your loss. I remember Angie from school fondly. She was always such a sweetheart.

Hang in there. You can do this and we are here for you. ALWAYS!
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MLMILLER11 1/18/2012 10:12PM

    I'm sorry for your loss. It is hard to lose a sister. When my sister passed we talked about all her antics and the fun loving things she did. It wasn't long before their was laughter mixed with our grief. Hold on to all your wonderful memories of her and all the good times you had together. Before long you just might find yourself smiling inside and out.

I pray God will comfort your heart and give you peace.

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WILDFLOWERR_ 1/18/2012 10:56AM

    Welcome Back Ms. M! I have sorely missed you! We are here for you! emoticon ALWAYS! emoticon
Please let me know if I can help you on your journey to better health in ANY way!
Love,
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PENNEYV 1/18/2012 10:35AM

    Life has ways of changing things in ways we never expecte. Sound like you are actually a very strong person and can change your physical circumstance. Look at it as choosing to live FOR your sister. Will be praying for your recovery! emoticon

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POORGIRL_DIET 1/18/2012 10:09AM

    I am very sorry for your loss, you and your family will be remember in my prayers.

Take it one day at a time hun and come back when you are ready. You are in my thoughts

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BELTONWALKER67 1/18/2012 8:45AM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Try to remember all the fun times you had with your sister. Those memories will be with you forever.

I'm glad you are out of the hospital and doing better. 2011 was hard for you and now it's time for 2012 to bring good things to you. emoticon

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