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Wednesday, January 18, 2012

My heart weighs heavy tonight. I got off the phone with my mother an hour ago as I was driving home from my ICU shift. She informed me she had went to the doctor this morning.

She isn't doing well. Her GI system is basically shutting down. She is absorbing 0 nutrients. Her B12 has bottomed out and she's severely anemic. She has small, new RBCs but the count is extremely low (even of the newly formed ones).

Along with all of this she has bronchitis and a walking pneumonia.

My mother is a diabetic so illness is hard on her anyway. About a year and a half ago she has a form of gastric surgery to correct her eroded esophagus (due to incorrectly diagnosed GERD followed by incorrectly prescribed anti-acids). They are thinking this is maybe some sort of worse-case scenario complication of that surgery

This is extremely hard for me because being in the medical field means I know exactly what is happening to her, but since I am so far away, am in a position where I can't do anything/am not as informed.

I am mad. Mad because her doctors aren't doing anything. In fact her doctor told her today he didn't have enough time for her and is seeing her again on Thursday. I am mad that a woman who has gone though so much in her life is once again facing an uncertain, dangerous, future. I am mad because there is the possiblity that I will be with out one of the mostinfluencial people in my life. I am so mad I am crying.

Any thoughts, prayers, kharmic help you may have is much appreciated!


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KT-NICHOLS-13 2/6/2012 1:20PM

    How are you?
How is your mom doing?
I apologize for not responding to this the same day I read it. Which was, by the way, the same day you posted it. This is not to say that I've not been sending out fierce healing thoughts and love to you and your family. I think about you and your mom daily.
Please let me know how things are going ... in your own time, as I know your time is precious.


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LADYDARYA 1/18/2012 5:20AM

    When my father died, before he dies my mind was reeling because I had enough medical knowledge to know what his prognoses was - almost wish I hadn't. I also know what it's like to have to deal with doctor's who blow off family members because she is a woman and appears to be always complaining - in this case my mother who almost died because her PCP thought she was a complainer but turned out that she had Chron's disease and a pocket of poison had formed in her system and was poisoning her. Bah! My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your mother.

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