Wednesday, January 18, 2012
My heart weighs heavy tonight. I got off the phone with my mother an hour ago as I was driving home from my ICU shift. She informed me she had went to the doctor this morning.
She isn't doing well. Her GI system is basically shutting down. She is absorbing 0 nutrients. Her B12 has bottomed out and she's severely anemic. She has small, new RBCs but the count is extremely low (even of the newly formed ones).
Along with all of this she has bronchitis and a walking pneumonia.
My mother is a diabetic so illness is hard on her anyway. About a year and a half ago she has a form of gastric surgery to correct her eroded esophagus (due to incorrectly diagnosed GERD followed by incorrectly prescribed anti-acids). They are thinking this is maybe some sort of worse-case scenario complication of that surgery
This is extremely hard for me because being in the medical field means I know exactly what is happening to her, but since I am so far away, am in a position where I can't do anything/am not as informed.
I am mad. Mad because her doctors aren't doing anything. In fact her doctor told her today he didn't have enough time for her and is seeing her again on Thursday. I am mad that a woman who has gone though so much in her life is once again facing an uncertain, dangerous, future. I am mad because there is the possiblity that I will be with out one of the mostinfluencial people in my life. I am so mad I am crying.
Any thoughts, prayers, kharmic help you may have is much appreciated!