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Tuesday, January 17, 2012

I crossed my second forbidden watershed weight recently. I remember when I got to my lowest weight in ten years. I said I'd never be over 200 pounds again. I also expressed how happy I was to no longer be part of the obesity epidemic.

Then I lost sight of my goals. I started eating whatever I wanted. I stopped working out regularly. Before I knew it, I was inching over 200 pounds again. I could make excuses and say, "Well, it's not that much. I can lose it again with no problems." But the other day I stepped on the scale and it said 220. There's no way that even I- master of making excuses that I am- can try to explain that one or be anything even approaching casual about it.

I'm not happy about this. It's one of only a very small handful of things I don't like about me and my life. (Despite the weight gain, I still have extremely high self-esteem.) So I'm trying again, and this time I'm determined to make it stick. I'm still working on a plan, so I'm not making any grand pronouncements yet. I do know that I don't have as many roadblocks concerning my schedule as I used to have, so it should be easier to manage. Whether that ends up being true or not is entirely up in the air.

I can say that I am all steely determination. However, if intentions were all it took, we would all be slender and healthy, right?
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  • DRPOOH63
    Sounds like you have a plan and a focus emoticon .
    2133 days ago
    Sounds like you are determined and really that's what it is all about, how determined we are. We must not lose sigh of that. It isn't just about losing weight, but, about giving our bodies the right kind of fuel to keep us feeling well and healthy. I have been trying very hard to use the tracker and really look at the end of day report to try and get the right amount of everything like cholesterol, calcium, etc.and I really do feel better already. I wish you much success with your determination. emoticon
    2133 days ago
    Always remember you aren't alone. I too started eating way to much to often. We can do it again. Recommit to Spark and the healthy lifestyle.
    2133 days ago
    Thanks, ladies! You guys are my "rocks of encouragement." Paula, I'm not brave enough for the "before" pictures, but maybe I should try. I have to find my camera's battery, since there's no way they're going on my work phone! I'm going very veggie/fruit based this week, myself. Not quite a cleanse, because I'm also making sure I get plenty of whole grains and lean protein (and enough fat to stick with it ;-) ).

    And yeah. Ann Arbor. I'll be there. emoticon
    2133 days ago
  • POOHLA711
    Welcome back, friend! You and I are in the same boat, and in fact, at the same current weight. I just had my husband take pictures of me in my sports bra and undies over the weekend because I needed that wakeup call.
    I'm resetting myself this week with a fruit/veggie cleanse. Then I'm ready to learn how to eat sensibly and make this change for life.
    Let's do this together, girl!

    BTW... Ann Arbor is having their inaugural marathon on June 17. I'm planning to do the half. Are you in????
    2133 days ago
  • LAURIE5658
    Jen, I have been battling this since age 4, I swear. I may not look obese but I have been in my lifetime. Sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom before we can start rising to the top once again.

    2133 days ago
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