Tuesday, January 17, 2012
I skipped exercise all last week because I had three major projects due for work, which stressed me out quite a bit. Also, it was so much work that I ended up getting only about 4 or 5 hours of sleep a night because I had to get my projects done by the deadlines.
Why is it that when I get super busy, my exercise and eating goes out the window? I think I must handle stress terribly. I get so stressed and anxious about not having enough time to get my work done that I skip my exercise.
For one, it usually doesn't occur to me that I can go for only 30 minutes and not my full 60 that I usually do. Who says I need to do 60 minutes? But it doesn't occur to me that I could cut it short, and I think, "I need that extra hour to do work."
So then I cut exercise, and that extra hour somehow makes me a little less stressed, but then later I regret not taking the time.
Why can't I think of doing 30 minutes instead of 60 minutes? I could do 30 minutes!
Why does my skipping exercise make me less stressed at the time? Why can't I manage my stress well enough that I can do exercise without feeling anxious about the work I have to do?
I think part of it is that if I exercise before I do my work for the day, then I stress about having enough time to get it all done. But if I put off exercise until after work, by then it's usually too late (too dark) to go running and I regret not going.
What is wrong with me??? Argh!!!
I think the root of it all is that I need to manage my time and my stress better. Ha! Easier said than done.
I am going on the exercise bike right now. It's not as good a workout as running and I don't like it as much, but it's better than nothing and I'm feeling decidedly guilty about skipping exercise all last week because I was so busy and under deadline.
I think I will look into some books or something about managing time and stress better. This is ridiculous. I can't go off my healthy lifestyle every time I have projects due for work and get stressed about them.