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I don't wanna!

Monday, January 16, 2012

Today I had a meltdown. I decided that I was too fat to lose weight, that it was too much work and wasn't worth it. Seriously, almost in tears about being at this weight. The problem is that I gained weight. I went from 185 to 143 and now am at 157. I feel like I am starting all over and I am pissed at myself for gaining weight. Instead of losing another 13lbs to reach goal I have to lose 27. It may not sound like much, but it feels like the world to me. How am I supposed to do it all again? Do I even have the motivation to get it all done? Today I would have taken the magic weight loss pill if it were handed to me.

I know better. I know making conscious decisions about food and getting plenty of exercise is the only lasting answer to weight loss and maintenance. Today sucked, but I still made good choices on food and went to Jazzercise this morning. I just need to get my head in the game. I have a long year of weight loss ahead of me.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:

    I know how you feel! I went from 164 to 150 then I went back up to 160 in a really short period of time and I'm struggling to get motivated once again! You can do it! It sounds like you have all the tools that you need to be successful one day at a time emoticon

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JAZZIEASH87 1/18/2012 1:54PM

    Good luck! I know exactly how you feel because I am right there with you! We can do it together

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SDJOLLY 1/16/2012 8:52PM

    Oh wow, how I can relate. I was down to 167 and now back at 188. I'm starting over too. Exercise is not a problem, but I'm really struggling with food. I'm finally getting back on track. We're in this together!

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ICHOOSETHIN 1/16/2012 8:40PM

    Hey - thanks for sharing your blog. I, too, am trying to lose what I gained; although, mine was a 32 pound gain. Of course we can do it! It sucks to be back up but it's definitely a learning opportunity. I'm sending positive thoughts your way.

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SHELLY8212 1/16/2012 8:30PM

    You can do it, don't give up!!!!

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TAGSUIT2 1/16/2012 8:28PM

    emoticon Just think about the people that have to lose more then 27 pounds.

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CAVEPRINCESS65 1/16/2012 8:27PM

    emoticon for doing the class and good choices on food today. If you did this today, that means you did not completely give up. emoticon weight loss yo-yo is hard but don't get frustrated. Start small, enrolled in challenges like 10 minutes workout challenge on this site. Check out the fitness tab for short videos from coach nicole - they are short workout and doable. As you get stronger you can double the time by repeating the video. This is a great way to get more workout without realizing that you are doing it. Hang in there and you will see the results. It takes time to gain weight and it takes time to lose and maintain it. Be patience with your self. use this site for support Lots of emoticon to cheer you up and to give you support and advice. You are not alone!

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JENNDYCHES 1/16/2012 8:25PM

    Dont give up. Find whatever your motivation is n reconnect in with it. I m at 192 .. a weigth that I never thought I would see. I still can't believe that I am what I am ..
Just hang in there ..Dont give up .. emoticon

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ERINLINDSAY83 1/16/2012 8:24PM

    I know how you feel. I'm at my heaviest weight right now. Had an AWFUL summer, gained 35 pounds from August until now.... thanks to LOTS or Prednisone, other steroids and copious amouonts of stress eaing. It's hard to look in the mirror! (Plus Im still on steroids, so I feel like it's hopeless and not even worth trying.)

Well, we have to pick ourselves up and keep working! :)

Great job on your good choices for today! Keep it up! You can rock this!

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