Monday, January 16, 2012
Today I had a meltdown. I decided that I was too fat to lose weight, that it was too much work and wasn't worth it. Seriously, almost in tears about being at this weight. The problem is that I gained weight. I went from 185 to 143 and now am at 157. I feel like I am starting all over and I am pissed at myself for gaining weight. Instead of losing another 13lbs to reach goal I have to lose 27. It may not sound like much, but it feels like the world to me. How am I supposed to do it all again? Do I even have the motivation to get it all done? Today I would have taken the magic weight loss pill if it were handed to me.
I know better. I know making conscious decisions about food and getting plenty of exercise is the only lasting answer to weight loss and maintenance. Today sucked, but I still made good choices on food and went to Jazzercise this morning. I just need to get my head in the game. I have a long year of weight loss ahead of me.