Monday, January 16, 2012
So I go shopping today. I need an outfit, dress something for a dinner/dance this weekend. My father-in-law is stepping up as the president of a professional association. I HATE clothes shopping! I maybe losing weight, the sizes maybe smaller BUT I still see how much I have to lose, not how far I have came.
It has become evident that I may have to have skin removed as a result of losing weight. The more I lose the looser the skin under my belly button gets and the further it "hangs". It is gross. I am disgusted by this and more embarrassed than anyone will every know or understand.
I have dresses on my body today, zipped and all that were a size 12. If it were not for this "hanging" I would have love 2 of the dresses. But alas, I have this horrible sagging bunch of skin......I never considered for once that losing weight would not be the only thing I would have to do to fix my problem areas. NEVER did I think I would have to have a surgery to fix what I have done to myself.
I wanted to celebrate the size 12, but I just cannot.......