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Plateaus... in more ways than one. :-(

Monday, January 16, 2012

This past couple of weeks has kind of just been exhausting. I had to give up my role as a BLC leader because I just couldn't put forth enough effort and support that the teams need due to a bunch of reasons. I really hate that I let the other leaders down and I hope to be able to get back into it at some point, but right now... I just can't.

A good friend of mine and my boyfriends got into a car accident a couple of weeks ago. At first they thought it was just a broken nose and collar bone, but a few days later he started having mini strokes due to blood clots in his throat. He's paralyzed on his right side and can hardly talk. His wife isn't giving us much information so a lot of what we are hearing is hearsay. She won't let us go visit him, won't let us call her... we don't know anything. Its so aggravating, depressing and frustrating not knowing whats going on.

To top it off, my car decided to break on me and shred a brand new tire. The spring/strut broke on it and its leaking fluids. The technician just called and said it would be 1460. AWESOME, something else I can't afford!

I don't know if its stress or what but I haven't lost any weight since the beginning of the year and its getting to be really frustrating. I haven't changed anything, still working out just the same, eating the same amount of calories, the scale just isn't moving at all. I have plateaued. I am stuck. I really think I am destined to be fat for the rest of my life. 266 is not skinny, nor will it ever be. I don't want to be here forever. GET ME OUT OF HERE.

So, to try to break through this plateau I've started the C25k. I'm on week one, today will be day three. Day two kind of sucked... I got through it but it was hard. Probably cause I was still sore from day one. Not as sore today so day three should be a little easier. I don't know though that I'm going to be able to move on to the next step by Wednesday... I may do two weeks for each step. I'm not sure how I like it yet either. I have never been much of a runner, so we'll see how it goes. I just want to do ANYTHING to get me off of 266.

I've also upped my calories. I think I might have been starving my body, though, I always felt full. Instead of 1300-1400 calories, I'm going to shoot for 1700 to 1800. Hopefully this will jump start me again. If not... I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know if I can last more than a couple weeks without wanting to completely give up.

The final piece of big stress is the fact that nobody ever stops asking my boyfriend and I when we are getting married. I want to get married, I love him and want to be with him. He feels the same way. Right now though, we have one problem to work through that is just not letting us move forward. Its something that could make or break a relationship in the future and I'm not going to move forward to just get divorced a couple years down the road. I just know its not smart to move ahead when we already know there is this issue. It has nothing to do with another person, or money or if we love each other, its just something we need to get over together. So I lie and tell people its because we don't have enough money for a wedding (ok, this isn't too far off... we don't have the money for it, but that's not the real reason!)... I don't know what to do any more. How fast do I have to get over this to move on? How do I know if its not going to ever get better?

Need a therapist much?! YES!
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BABBINA 1/19/2012 2:06AM

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WRITEWAY73 1/18/2012 2:48PM

    YOU CAN DO IT! Keep your head up!

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AIMEESINGS 1/18/2012 1:42PM

    Hope things turn around soon for you! I think the stress I'm dealing with is hindering my weight loss. I seem to be doing everything perfect but controlling the stress in my life. And who can easily control that!? Not me! Girl just keep your head up and remember things never stay the same. And I applaud you for not rushing to marriage. My husband and I were dating for 5 years and engaged for almost 2 when we got married. No need to rush anything until you are happy and ready. The best marriages start with good foundations!

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EVELYN208 1/17/2012 12:15PM

    Don't give up! Believe me it is a lot worse if you do and just to trek through the bad times. Good idea to mix up your workouts, usually that is the way to get through it.

Maybe try something completely new, like cycling or boxing or something you haven't done at all. Nothing like a new experience to pump you up and exercise muscles and joints that haven't felt the burn in a long time!

Good luck!

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ASHERAH123 1/16/2012 11:18PM

    Sometimes its best to tackle one issue at a time. Stress in itself can prevent weight loss so stick with what you have been doing and try to deal with the other issues that you can control. Eventually it will get better and your body will be able to shed the pounds. I am very sorry to hear about your friend and I hope that his wife will eventually be able to let you in on the situation. I wish you the best.

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THOMS1 1/16/2012 2:47PM

    I hope things get better for you. I wish you success on your journey. emoticon

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SWALL84 1/16/2012 1:40PM

    Wow, you sure have a lot on your plate right now. I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. It must be really frustrating to not know what's going on although I can't imagine how it would feel to be in his wife's place right now and she just might be reacting to all the pain and stress right now.
I am doing SparkPeople Rookie Your Way running program and I had to do two weeks of Week 1 as well. It's hard right now, but no matter how slow the weight loss happens, the thing that will make you successful is perseverance. Continue doing the right things by working out and sticking to your plan and eventually the number will start moving again. Easy to say and harder to do, I know.
I really hope things start looking better for you soon.


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CARLYOLEO41 1/16/2012 12:49PM

    Hang in there! You are going to come out of this so strong and know that there's nothing you can't handle. I know you can do it!

As far as C25K it took me over 2 weeks to get past the first week and then it seemed a lot easier. I think I repeated week 4 a couple times, too.

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FORKYLIEANDME77 1/16/2012 12:44PM

  Thank you for sharing your challenges with us. Sometimes it's good just to let it all out. I hope you felt better getting it all out. Have you tried looking on Craigslist to see if you can get a lower estimate? Also you can call around and get used tires for a cheaper price.

I am very sorry to hear about your friend. That is a shame that you aren't able to get the information you need from his wife.

Instead of maintaining the same routine maybe try switching it up. Do a different form of cardio to use different muscles and maybe look up a new strength training exercise.

I just read a message board post from Jamie saying how sparkpeople will automatically adjust the ammount of calories you need according to how many you log that you are burning. Don't quote me on that I would ask her about it specifically.

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CAM2438 1/16/2012 11:41AM

    It certainly sounds as though you have given such gret thought to your life and future. It seems as though things will never get better, bt, they will. It may not turn out the way you wsnt it to, but, it will turn out for the best. It seems as though you are very mature and will make the correct decisions.

I wouldn't worry about my weight right now since you are inder so much stress. The last thing you want to do is make yourself sick. Good Luck and keep us posted. emoticon

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RIEUADMIRER 1/16/2012 11:36AM

  My goodness me! What a lot you have had to put up with. You have great strength of character. I have had a lot of problems recently and it took me 5 weeks to today to lose one pound after doing so well before. The main thing is to
keep going. I wish you well. Hugs Sylvia

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